But again.
In my case, they are all begnins stuff compared to big bad things.
But like the water drop torture, my mind is cracking.
......flash thought
MAYBE this equilibrium-system is maybe a counter to inert bad luck and saving my life by activating small bad events (early detonating)
i...
Worse of all,
is that i know that my case, is in the domain of "supernatural" and shouldnt be believed and should trust science. But i know its true.
Bc years ago, saw the "unluckiest man alive" (passed more time in hospital than out / coconut can fall on his head and fracture)
and the guiness...
Do you know, everyone? Im so fking scared to simply say "hi" now.
I FKING KNOW, there is will be shittiness incoming in my face from somewhere, somehow, someway.
Just like there was once this thread asking for help (at new year or christma), or botty asking for "what is that?"
My hand type the...
It is not that i'm a snowflake,
but that im jp-like in mentality
wanting peace
am reasonnable
selfless
kind
want to help
etc
But its like DC writers write bad events for spiderman for lolz.
Or conan manga.
I know its begnin, that others suffer 1000x more (like hans prev situation&suffering&health), or would kill to get my place/life.
But.............its just so frustrating.
Its as annoying as wanting to be in peace, but there is a baseball ball hitting in the face, or a vase hitting you...
and here we go again.
My equilibrium luck started again.
Not on SHF :
Suffered a kusogaki (mockery by repeating to me an insult i suffered beforehand days ago + "jk"). Legit only said a totally pointless sentence and bam. (as my name is memorable)
Encountered "fun" users afterwards as...
https://www.listenonrepeat.com/?v=DCp35bTW24k&s=33&e=274#Taketatsu_Ayana_%E7%AB%B9%E8%BE%BE%E5%BD%A9%E5%A5%88%E3%80%8CU%EF%BC%86I%E3%80%8DK-ON_Azusa_Azu-nyan_-_FROM_LIVE_HOUSE_TOUR_2019_sub_indonesia
Time to uplift my mood, so i can welcome the new year perfectly.
other factors
botty closed profile
paul inactive
envy inactive
hans entered depression, suffered, near suicidal (now fine)
lazy to continue the list
and well, from a happy clan, into a deserted one. So i became a annoying sasuke.
But anyway, what im trying to say is that, i turned into a porcupine, with the numerous dramas that i suffered in SHF. (the kind that seems straight out of twitter psychos, hence why i repeat "wool monkey seems now an angel in my eyes")
If you try to check in the past, i was happily joking and...