TheEldritchGod
A Cloud Of Pure Spite And Eyes
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There have been a few people trying to contact me for the past month. I figured it'd be best to just post it here so I didn't miss anyone.
SO...
An old college friend's wife died. Dealing with that, I found out she was't who I thought she was. Turns out he got divorced, from the woman he married in college. The one couple I expected to last forever got divorced. Bit of an shock, to say the least. He has no idea what happened to her. Since then, I had four cats become deathly ill for various reasons. Two had to be put to sleep, two recovered. That was a few thousand dollars I didn't have. My co-worker's fiance died and while we were never close, it turns out he does not have many friends. He know's of my wife's poor health, so I guess he wanted my perspective on things, in so much as I'd "get him". Talking with him has been a soul draining experience. Due to all this we've been short staffed at work which caused a cascade of problems that resulted in one of the few people who I call a friend, a co-worker, betraying me. Bad. I've been stabbed in the back before, but what she did was unforgivable.
And she did it just to win an argument.
To top it all off, they got me working at a different work site than normal which has no internet access and is very active. I have very little free time at work to do my writing, like I usually do. In short, the past two months have sucked. I'm posting this, not so much to get encouragement, to whine, or for any sort of feedback. It is a confession that I have been very depressed. I have been avoiding everything that I could avoid. If I could put something off, I did. I've been doing only doing the absolute bare minimum interaction like paying bills and what not. I spend all my spare time sleeping or just lying in bed, even when I shouldn't. I know it might not make much sense, but even just reading email/DMs has been exhausting.
If you can't admit you have a problem, you can't correct your problem. I have a problem. I shall now take steps to fix it. I wish to apologize to anyone who I have ignored/blown off for the past few months. I have no excuse, just an explanation and a promise to try and do better. If I'm going to get out of this funk, I need to stop pushing everyone away. A thanks to the person who kept poking me until out of sheer annoyance I had to respond to them. I think I'd still be lying in bed for another month if you had not.
- T.E.G.
SO...
An old college friend's wife died. Dealing with that, I found out she was't who I thought she was. Turns out he got divorced, from the woman he married in college. The one couple I expected to last forever got divorced. Bit of an shock, to say the least. He has no idea what happened to her. Since then, I had four cats become deathly ill for various reasons. Two had to be put to sleep, two recovered. That was a few thousand dollars I didn't have. My co-worker's fiance died and while we were never close, it turns out he does not have many friends. He know's of my wife's poor health, so I guess he wanted my perspective on things, in so much as I'd "get him". Talking with him has been a soul draining experience. Due to all this we've been short staffed at work which caused a cascade of problems that resulted in one of the few people who I call a friend, a co-worker, betraying me. Bad. I've been stabbed in the back before, but what she did was unforgivable.
And she did it just to win an argument.
To top it all off, they got me working at a different work site than normal which has no internet access and is very active. I have very little free time at work to do my writing, like I usually do. In short, the past two months have sucked. I'm posting this, not so much to get encouragement, to whine, or for any sort of feedback. It is a confession that I have been very depressed. I have been avoiding everything that I could avoid. If I could put something off, I did. I've been doing only doing the absolute bare minimum interaction like paying bills and what not. I spend all my spare time sleeping or just lying in bed, even when I shouldn't. I know it might not make much sense, but even just reading email/DMs has been exhausting.
If you can't admit you have a problem, you can't correct your problem. I have a problem. I shall now take steps to fix it. I wish to apologize to anyone who I have ignored/blown off for the past few months. I have no excuse, just an explanation and a promise to try and do better. If I'm going to get out of this funk, I need to stop pushing everyone away. A thanks to the person who kept poking me until out of sheer annoyance I had to respond to them. I think I'd still be lying in bed for another month if you had not.
- T.E.G.
