Just venting it off

[Nevafrost]

Well, I have this fatal disease that I didn't tell anyone about. I mean I didn't even tell my family or friends. You know what? I don't even take any medication or treatment, lol. I don't know why I'm doing this to me. It may seem childish and immature. Well, I also agree that I'm acting foolish. I'm not talking about it to anybody. It may seem like I'm depressed but I'm not. I'm the happy-go-lucky type person. But, why am I doing this? I don't know. I just needed to vent out. I'm doing so. May be it’s just my mood swings.

 

[XMythicalFox]

You probably don't want to worry the people around you- but seriously go take medicine or something, just pass it off as a cold (Please at least do this-) anyways, take care!

 

[Nevafrost]

You probably don't want to worry the people around you- but seriously go take medicine or something, just pass it off as a cold (Please at least do this-) anyways, take care!

You are kinda right. I don't want to see my mom crying her eyes out or my dad worrying about me 24/7. It just doesn't feel right. But, I know I should take care of my health. I dunno why I'm not doing it. I want to be rational but I can't.

 

[SRB]

You are kinda right. I don't want to see my mom crying her eyes out or my dad worrying about me 24/7. It just doesn't feel right. But, I know I should take care of my health. I dunno why I'm not doing it. I want to be rational but I can't.

That... Suspiciously sounds like depression. I won't tell you to take your medicine, you know you need to, just... I've seen the way my grand-uncle was acting when he found out he got cancer.

Maybe you're not depressed, but I think you should at least tell about it to somebody who you can call a close friend. Just to get it off your chest, not only on the internet.

 

[Nevafrost]

That... Suspiciously sounds like depression. I won't tell you to take your medicine, you know you need to, just... I've seen the way my grand-uncle was acting when he found out he got cancer.

Maybe you're not depressed, but I think you should at least tell about it to somebody who you can call a close friend. Just to get it off your chest, not only on the internet.

This is my first time telling someone about my disease. And, I already feel a little relieved. But, I'm scared to tell people irl, even my best friend or family members.

 

[CrimsonGenius]

Take the bloody medicine

 

[Nevafrost]

Take the bloody medicine

Well, yeah, I should. But, I just can't go to the hospital and take regular medicines and think that my family won't notice (especially my mom) as we live together. I'm mostly scared to let my family know about my condition.

 

[RepresentingWrath]

I'm living in a different country, so excuse me for this question. You can only take your medicine in the hospital?

 

[Nevafrost]

I'm living in a different country, so excuse me for this question. You can only take your medicine in the hospital?

No no. That's not what I meant. I meant to say that I just can't go to see the doctor (I said hospital cause that's where doctors are, lol). My mom would know for sure

 

[RepresentingWrath]

No no. That's not what I meant. I meant to say that I just can't go to see the doctor (I said hospital cause that's where doctors are, lol). My mom would know for sure

Maybe you can try downplaying it? I didn't have anything fatal, but I did feel the same a couple of times in my life. When you don't want to worry family. I usually downplayed it and took medicine when nobody was watching. When they asked me whether I was alright, I would say I'm not, but it's nothing serious, and it will heal on its own if given enough time. It's not a good decision, but it's better than doing nothing.

 

[Nevafrost]

Maybe you can try downplaying it? I didn't have anything fatal, but I did feel the same a couple of times in my life. When you don't want to worry family. I usually downplayed it and took medicine when nobody was watching. When they asked me whether I was alright, I would say I'm not, but it's nothing serious, and it will heal on its own if given enough time. It's not a good decision, but it's better than doing nothing.

Imma try it. May be. If I can.

 

[FallenMoon3]

Well, I have this fatal disease that I didn't tell anyone about. I mean I didn't even tell my family or friends. You know what? I don't even take any medication or treatment, lol. I don't know why I'm doing this to me. It may seem childish and immature. Well, I also agree that I'm acting foolish. I'm not talking about it to anybody. It may seem like I'm depressed but I'm not. I'm the happy-go-lucky type person. But, why am I doing this? I don't know. I just needed to vent out. I'm doing so. May be it’s just my mood swings.

The fact that you made this post already shows that things are not well.

 

[Nevafrost]

The fact that you made this post already shows that things are not well.

That's true. Things are not well and I know I have to regret.

 

[QuercusMalus]

Imma try it. May be. If I can.

Put the medication in a Vitamin jar, or tic tac jar or something innocuous. Though if you do that, plan on keeping some of the real candy in it if people ask to share.

 

[Nevafrost]

Put the medication in a Vitamin jar, or tic tac jar or something innocuous. Though if you do that, plan on keeping some of the real candy in it if people ask to share.

Nice idea ?

 

[greyblob]

you're being incredibly selfish. you matter not only to yourself but to others around you aswell. withholding something like this is will only make matters worse when they eventually know about it. i dont know how serious your condition is but it'll be much easier to face when you have others to support you. it may seem strong trying to shoulder this alone but it's really not.

 

[Nevafrost]

you're being incredibly selfish. you matter not only to yourself but to others around you aswell. withholding something like this is will only make matters worse when they eventually know about it. i dont know how serious your condition is but it'll be much easier to face when you have others to support you. it may seem strong trying to shoulder this alone but it's really not.

I'm not feeling strong rn. But, I'm really afraid to let them know. I know I'm being irrational.

 

[greyblob]

I'm not feeling strong rn. But, I'm really afraid to let them know. I know I'm being irrational.

just go and hug your mother. it'll get out on its own

 

[Nevafrost]

just go and hug your mother. it'll get out on its own

You know, I just woke up from a nightmare crying. I saw that I was going to lose my mother. But, she was just beside me when I woke up. She means a lot and I dunno why I'm so afraid to let them know.

 

[Kalliel]

As blob has said, you need to think of your family as well. If the disease is fatal, even more so. They'll know at one point or another anyway, so let them know as soon as possible so that they can sort out their emotions and such.

On a side note, my grandpa also insisted he was fine for years and refused to go to the hospital. Yeah, he got cancer. It was too late at that point, and I remember my mom and her siblings struggled so much to take care of him for those last months.

Your struggle doesn't stay yours if it involves your life, and it shouldn't be.