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SsemouyOnan

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It definitely makes sense that just as you are my weakness, I am yours. Or maybe it doesn't make sense, but it definitely makes me happy.:blob_melt:
It's like those games where there's the rock papers scissors elements, and then there's two outliers that are super effective against each other :blob_uwu:
My teacher was a fan of what I wrote, so maybe what I wrote back then wasn't so bad. I'd like to reread my essays. Who knows what I thought at the time and what style I had. Rereading them would be a bit like time travel. I'd definitely cringe a lot, kind of like looking at a photo of myself as a child.
My teacher certainly wasn't, considering all the big circles around my grammatical errors. I don't even know how I manage to write coherent sentences these days. :blob_happy:
I wonder what teenage Ssemouy wrote, what kind of poetry. Love letters? Existential dramas? Fan fiction? Power fantasies? All of the above? We'll never know.
In terms of LNs, I only got into them in 2018, and I certainly didn't think I could write like in hardcover books. I mostly made poetry about the first thing that comes to my mind, so sceneries, recent events, memories. Or something random and absurd, like that time I made a poem of how I would be like if I was cake.
Isolating oneself from the internet certainly increases productivity, so I believe that this method can work.

The idea is intriguing, but when I think about having to copy what I've already written, I lose the desire. I don't like transcribing, that I'm pretty sure of, even though the feeling of pen and paper is undeniable. I realize that when I need to jot something down, I do it much faster with a pen, and I still prefer paper agendas to Google Calendar. Maybe it has to do with my job. It's not bad to lose the habit. However, I reiterate that when it comes to writing a novel, I'd resort to the pen only if I had no choice.
I've had to transcribe audio into word docs before, so copying actual text you understand with 100% certainty is a lot more pleasant of an experience. I get into a flow state of sorts and it becomes an almost therapeutic experience. It definitely doesn't apply to everyone though.
I definitely need your care when handling these memory devices. They don't last long with me, so the invention of Dropbox was a game-changer for me (though I don't use it much anymore, preferring other services). My phones also tend to fly, but fortunately, I've learned my lesson and always use particularly protective covers, even if they are a bit inconvenient.
It's mostly because I just have them collect dust in a drawer somewhere, minimal risk of damage if you don't use them at all! :blob_evil: Dropbox definitely isn't worth using now since it has a huge target painted on its back.
I need to clarify this concept because I might misunderstand what you mean by Futurism.
What I know as Futurism is an artistic movement that is very dear to me, but this term can be misinterpreted in 2024 because Futurism is politically associated with a political alignment that is not well regarded.
For me, art is art, and I separate it from political connotations, but not everyone feels the same.
Hold on, hold on, I definitely needed to clarify things here. :sweating_profusely: Sorry, I'm aware of the art movement, but that wasn't what came to my mind, I also didn't know about the politics, since I'm pretty ignorant about those. I'm talking about Futurism in the context of science, which is predicting what the future holds for us(it's usually wildly off the mark, but its interesting and fuels my optimism. I suppose people call it Futurology or Future Studies like some. The topic can be politically charged, but not every futurist talks about it in terms of politics... though I do admit that politics is a part of it... especially in a certain time period that you may be thinking of.
The Futurists were a circle of particularly extreme artists and intellectuals. They could be described as interventionists and even warmongers. They exalted violence and conflict as means of evolution. Their cornerstones were machines, dynamism, and speed; they celebrated technology and industry, seeing them as symbols of progress and human power.

It is an extremely progressive thought that sought to break with the past to create an aesthetic suited to modernity (which is ironically a contradiction with the conservative party it is associated with).

By the way, this work by Carlo Carrà is one of my favorites. I have a printed copy hanging in my office.





I see :blob_aww: I've heard of the art movement before, but I've never really had someone explain it so passionately to me.

So, I may as well reciprocate. There's no single definition of futurology that all futurists would agree on, but it's basically thinking of the future. Obviously, that has many parts to it, like society, economy and science. But I'm mostly interested in the science part of it. Occasionally, I do think of the social aspect, though.

The topics are very interesting, and are not just great engines for sci-fi, but for the alt history of many fantasy settings. I have a gen z attention span, so I mostly stick to youtubers.

The content here is usually grounded and discussing recent discoveries. I don't watch them much, but they collab with a lot of knowledgeable people, so the topics are quite enlightening

My favorite one content-wise. His recent content doesn't feel as good as his old, and he is a politician with questionable agendas... but I really can't deny that his old videos on megastructures are a big inspiration for my writing.

Mostly stories here, and it's probably the most general audience friendly.

She's not purely focused on futurism. But she has a lot of hot takes, as shown by the video, and I love her for it.

I watch a lot of miscellaneous content too, but I have trouble recalling their names so I think this should be enough. To be honest, I approach things from a more creative viewpoint since I barely understand half of the topics talked about.

https://publicdomainreview.org/collection/a-19th-century-vision-of-the-year-2000/ Does this count as a part of Futurism(the art movement)? Curious. You may have already seen these, they're fairly popular when people talk about predictions for the future.
As for transhumanism, I'm conflicted about it. I don't deny that the idea of living forever attracts me, but when it comes to replacing parts of our body with mechanical/robotic pieces, a philosophical dilemma arises, one you already know: the Ship of Theseus Paradox.

Or even if we could transfer our consciousness into a machine, without our body, would we still be ourselves or a new individual? I think at that moment, we would die, and another person, identical to us but NOT us, would be born.
To me, it doesn't make a difference. If the thing has my memories, acts like me, thinks like me, behaves like me, has the exact same goals and dreams as me. Then it is me. It doesn't matter if this "me" dies, I still live on in that exact copy.

If you happen to be religious, this might offend you, but I can't really consider the me of say, 10 years ago to be the same individual as the person I am now. That me certainly would not approve or even understand my current mindset. Despite that, it's all still a part of my identity. So I don't mind transferring my consciousness into a machine or digital space.

That said, I won't be so reckless as to wire my brain to a computer or something. Even if the tech miraculously becomes available, I'll slowly replace parts of myself with mechanical ones instead of doing it all at once.
His concepts and philosophy are constantly repeated, and I see your words reflected in these as well:
"In war, the way is to avoid what is strong and to strike at what is weak." and "Victorious warriors win first and then go to war, while defeated warriors go to war first and then seek to win."

I'm curious about your passion for war, ships, and armaments. Where does it come from?
The Civilization series. I used to watch my dad play on his computer. Then I finally managed to get my hands on Civ V and I figured out how bad of a player he was :blobrofl: It got me interested in the course of history, and particularly in the war aspect since I played on Emperor+ difficulty where the AI rushes you with like dozens of units. My strategy is rushing superior technology and crushing the AI with ranged units, so that's probably where my firepower addiction came from.

It sort of just snowballed from there and one day I was listening to Sabaton songs while playing Azur Lane. I'm not as passionate about it as before though. I've forgotten a lot of things already.
I'm not talking about overturning the odds, but about tragic defeats that have become legendary. The most striking example is the Battle of Thermopylae. A foretold defeat against a stronger and overwhelming enemy, yet it served to win the war. In other cases, like El Alamein, they didn't even help to win the war, yet the memory and the sacrifice remain and echo through history. I can't help but think that these are more interesting stories than a crushing victory. But I'm a romantic; in reality, a defeat in the practical act to yourself is of no use even if it is heroic, and as always, you are right.
Ah, heroic last stands. It's not particularly meaningless, it shows the character of the leaders and followers. Constantine XI for example. Cultures like those tend to stick. They say history is written by the victors, but it's really just who has the better recordkeeping (being victorious generally leads to your records surviving).
We can only try to be careful and live in the present.
Sometimes it's just down to luck. And between my dice rolls and gacha rolls, I don't know whether life wants me alive or dead. :blob_hmm_two:
Unfortunately, it happened to me too, and I regret it even now.
No regrets for me! If it didn't happen then, it would have happened a few years later with gacha games.
I will be fine. I am using your tactic of stagger the bosses and nuke them with ultimates/ego.
You nuke with EGO? They're single coin so they're not that much in terms of damage, with some exceptions(wingbeat ishmael). Skills tend to do more, though it's usually skill 3s. Newer units have high damage on their skill 2s, though. Like Pointillist Yi Sang.
You also used her name in the role-playing game. :blob_evil:
Hey! Mabel does exist in the original Alice in Wonderland, she has like, 1 line dedicated to her. >_> But yeah, you're right that I did have her in mind while making that Mabel.
You had me at "eldritch deities wearing human skin"... woah, there's so much potential in that. It sounds like the kind of story that can truly delve into the deepest abysses of the human soul... the Japanese are unmatched in this. They have a lot of darkness inside, or at least they don't hesitate to transpose it into games and novels.
They tend to not have that mental filter that goes "yeah let's not include this because the public finds it morally reprehensible." It's really a double-edged sword. It leads to the most messed up things that happen for no reason, or one of the most beautiful stories about the indomitable human spirit.
Damn, how far will my obsession with you go?
These are supposed to be red flags!
From what you tell me, it sounds like the kind of story that would interest me. Should I start with the first one or go straight to the second?
Watch a playthrough of the first. You do need some of the context (Particularly End C and End D). It's just that the gameplay of the first is just not that interesting and it doesn't have as much to explore as the second. The artstyle also isn't quite as refined. Definitely play through the second though, the experience is not the same as watching it.
The engine used is really solid: RPG Maker VX Ace. Unlike MV, it has even more pleasant base resources and a less unstable engine. I created two games with it. Although I don't understand much about programming, as a profane, Ruby seems better and more elegant to me as a programming language compared to Javascript.
To be honest, it's all the same to me. But you're programming as a hobby, so what matters is you're using the one you enjoy more. I also heard VX ace has a lot more useful plugins.
Not gonna lie, that sounds really interesting. No, I'm really not trying to understand you better!
Maybe do consider playing through black souls 1 actually, if you're interested in this character. She plays a lot more of a role there.
Ego te absolvo. ? We all know that the best hentai are those with thick plots. :blob_evil:
I watch/read hentai for plot. Unironically. I don't really find the H-scenes of Black Souls too interesting, the MC is depicted as... humanoid blob thing(fair enough, he's the POV insert) and it's all quite vanilla even if the context is not. With the exception of some scenes in BS2, toro decided to play to his strengths in that one. Also there's a trap so that's a plus.
W-wait... That is an abyss that goes pretty deep. I don't know if you want to look into it.
Don't worry, I'm not looking into it. From the the synopsis alone I am most certainly not in the target audience :blob_sweat: I've already encountered the story before we met on SHF, I was surprised you wrote it for a second then I realized it makes total sense.
However, I'll just tell you that my favorite web novel is Pure Love x Insult Complex. And I have read much worse.
*looks it up*
The most unsettling part here is how the author keeps it up for 1470 chapters. :blob_blank:
One of the reasons I appreciate your chapters in SHHS is the presence of numerous characters interacting with each other at the same time.
It’s one of the things I struggle with the most, especially when dealing with unique characters, giving each their own voice and the right amount of time, and trying to make them act according to their personality is really exhausting. I'm writing a part like this, and I can't satisfy myself. 4000 words that feel like 40000, and I'm struggling to write at the speed of 2wordsperhour.
I do have my own issues. I could write 3k words of just dialogue between 3 characters, but I struggle with the action in between. By action I'm referring to facial expressions, non-verbal cues, and little things to prevent talking heads syndrome. That makes it so that there's a lot of filler that I feel like just shouldn't belong there. I write in big bursts and then there's long periods of time where I struggle to write a single sentence (put things down, delete, repeat). Since I can't ever find a scene that I'm not satisfied with.
It's not writer’s block, it's laziness combined with an emptied brain, a weariness of the soul that sometimes makes me want to bang my head against a wall. It's not the damn burnout, it's those knots of tangled masses I invariably reach when I'm about to write. In my mind, everything works perfectly, but when it's time to put it down on paper, every word is excruciating pain.
At that point, it's best to just bang your head against the wall and chug along even if you hate what you're writing. Then you wake up tomorrow and come to one of two realizations:
1. It really wasn't that bad, and you're satisfied with your work.
2. It really IS that bad, but you know why now and rewriting goes smoothly.

Or if you're me, you crumple up that digital paper and end up at square one. But that's an extreme case.
It happens that Shizuki is particularly attracted to someone who is very close to me...:blob_whistle_two:
True, maybe I should kidnap, I mean, reacquisition one of her drones fluttering around and have one of the more techy members of the family reverse engineer it. :blob_hmm:
Mary Sue in Sufferland :blobrofl:
I like to keep consistency, so if the MC lives in Sufferland they will suffer too. And probably have negative traits that make me not feel so bad for them. My Mary Sue characters meanwhile are in wacky, absurd settings where realistic logic and behavior isn't expected of them anyways.
In this case it is not necessary. :blob_evil:
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Don't you want to cook with me?
Of course! But if daikons are involved we both have to complete a ritual and a prayer. And if chocolate is mixed with daikon, I have to consult goddess daikon for that. I'm not sure if that's sacrilegious or not...
 

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Will me be forgiven if me again forgot where my put my to-do list :blob_blank:
 

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