Depression

[CupcakeNinja]

Alright, guys, real talk. Who here feels they are depressed? Or who here feels they have no reason to be depressed and are just drama queens who're unconsciously seeking attention, so they stay quiet and ignore what may well be very real problems simply because they don't believe they're worth the concern?

You can create alt accounts and answer if you wish.

 

[greyblob]

it's a state. it comes and goes - which I think is fairly normal.

 

[ArcadiaBlade]

Hey. Don't call me out like that. Just because I don't know how happiness works, doesn't mean you can say I'm depressed. At least I want to have my own rights to not be called a depressing person.....who just mopes all day.....thinking how my life came to be....how I'm just lonely and so sad.....

I-i mean I at least didn't die this time.....or any other time....maybe just a few minutes ago? No, even truck-sama gave up halfway......

Well, I mean I did make a friend.....who was another generation of spider in the room....who was also the child of my old...of my old....of my old friend.....who died just recently....

........I'll just go back to moping and waiting till my sickness who will not let me die again....

 

[Representing_Tromba]

I usually don't bother with this kind of thing. Mainly, because I figure that everyone has their own problems so why should I complain. Though, recently I haven't been feeling like the things that I usually enjoy are bringing me any joy. I refuse to say I'm depressed because I don't know what would even classify me as depressed since I can't afford a therapist. However. I don't feel like doing anything. Is that what depression is? I don't seriously know. I at least know I can't experience trauma because my doc said so but I have no clue about depression.

 

[Anon_Y_Mousse]

I stopped feeling depressed because I feel like there's no point in feeling depressed. I just gotta keep on living. Is this a new level of depression?

 

[Deleted member 58005]

People my age range are usually the ones who get hit the most. Puberty or whatever that is. I have no reason to feel depressed tho, just minor sadness.

 

[greyblob]

I stopped feeling depressed because I feel like there's no point in feeling depressed. I just gotta keep on living. Is this a new level of depression?

that's apathy. it's much much worse. you're fucked.

 

[CupcakeNinja]

I stopped feeling depressed because I feel like there's no point in feeling depressed. I just gotta keep on living. Is this a new level of depression?

its apathy. Advanced depression. My condolances

 

[Anon_Y_Mousse]

that's apathy. it's much much worse. you're fucked.

its apathy. Advanced depression. My condolances

Well, I don't really trust the diagnosis of random internet strangers, but it's not like my irl friends didn't say something along those lines either. Unfortunately, not enough money to get professional help.On the plus side, might be able to write a book with this theme.

 

[T.K._Paradox]

Okay real talk, I don't know honestly.

I have never attempted suicide or inflicted self-harm. Nor have I been diagnosed with depression or any mental illness. Nor do I consider myself a nihilist, I would like to believe everyone can show compassion.

I just feel tired all the time, and sometimes wish I didn't have to get up anymore. I get up and just feel numb or unfazed at life decides to through at me today. Guy stealing my sisters bike? Beat his ass and take it back. Forgot to turn in one of tens of assignments last night, and find out it is all deleted? Work until 5:00am to get it all back. Paranoid of who or what might be outside your feeble ghetto ass window at the moment? Pace throughout the house until morning as every growing fear swallows you. Death threats issued several years ago to a certain area that you would have been at if not for an event? Ignore the fact the people that got locked up for the threats are out of house arrest this year and not on parole or probation.

I don't have a problem interacting with others, but I prefer not, because I am just not really caring on what goes on around me anymore, everything sometimes feels like a routine harm or ego, because love to complain on how bad they got it or how they got it the worst out of everyone or how they love to explain on how they took advantage of another person for the most petty of shit. The way these people talk make me feel hollow and bitter, and make me ask, "What is the point?"

But on the brighter side I do find hope. Writing, reading, or just doing something productive makes me feel proud. I am not sure on how you feel about religion, but every time I worship or say grace in silence I feel strangely at peace. When I communicate with other fans and nerds alike I can always find a smile or laugh ready to erupt.

Sorry about the rant I just had to get that off my chest.

 

[Deleted member 42060]

Nowadays, the things I usually enjoy aren’t as enjoyable as before. I force myself to enjoy things even writing. I need to drink pills to normalize my appetite. However, and sure you may call this apathy, but I don’t feel depressed at all. I just feel either neutral or nothing. (I don’t want to call it anhedonia—that may be stretching it.)​

 

[Booper150]

Depression is a confusing subject. It's hard to say if I'm depressed or whether I have trouble with emotions due to underlying disorders. It's not that hard for me to have brief moments of joy such as talking about something interesting or reading the newest chapter of my favourite novel. I have always had trouble keeping my emotions in check so they all just kinda leak out unless I specifically want them hidden. At school, no one really knows that I'm sad at all due to the act I put up in order to get the insincere concern out of my life. It's a whole lot easier online to be more expressive with how shitty I feel because they can't really hurt me behind a screen with their apathy. I will not attempt to hurt myself nor will I attempt suicide because there isn't exactly a need for it. I have things I need to do and I plan on doing them until I perish. I also made a promise with someone to never leave them, so I can't throw away my pride and leave. With various mental obstacles and many other conditions like narcolepsy, sleeping is what I do to pass the time during the sad days. Getting attention, sleeping a little too much every day, and reading like a machine are the only things I look forward to nowadays.

 

[T.K._Paradox]

Well, I don't really trust the diagnosis of random internet strangers, but it's not like my irl friends didn't say something along those lines either. Unfortunately, not enough money to get professional help.On the plus side, might be able to write a book with this theme.

At least your looking on the brightside.

 

[Lloyd]

lol

 

[Anon_Y_Mousse]

At least your looking on the brightside.

I try my best to have an optimistic outlook on things, not sure if its the healthiest decision but it works out.

 

[bananapink]

You won't know you have one unless you acknowledge you are not okay. I'm the happiest person in our group.
In my case I keep telling myself that what I feel was only simple 'sadness' but there this irksome hollow feeling that won't go away. You think about what was lacking before you sleep and think about it when you open your eyes. During my worst moments, even when I'm outside I can't absorb the 'fun' everyone was having. It's difficult to explain. I thought I was just bored or sad. I gave up anime and manga for a while which are the only things that keeps me 'okay'.

And trust me, talking to a person who doesn't understand your situation only makes the feeling worse. The feeling of drowning and wanting to call for help but it's like you were speaking in another language. Even when I was sobbing mess in front of my friends when I tried opening up, they only looked at me weirdly. It hurts to be called drama queen or seeking attention when you yourself cannot thoroughly explain what's going on inside you. It was those times when I desperately needed someone to sit down with me and talk but there isn't one available because they're 'busy' or fed up with my drama.

If you're waiting for that silver lining to appear, well, there isn't one. You have to make it yourself is what I learned. I slowly broke away when I tried to change my outlook in life. Having too many people around doesn't mean happiness, being too positive can be a problem, don't put too much layers on yourself until you can no longer recognize the real you. Life is short yes and we will die eventually but to spend it moping around seems like a big waste so try things you were usually too hesitant to do maybe there's a surprise waiting.

You'll see signs when someone is not okay and if you do encounter one refrain from poking at their sore spot. People can be really mean and insensitive doing it for shit and giggles. It's true.

 

[RepresentingCaution]

I've been depressed, but it was back when I was taking birth control pills.

 

[KiraMinoru]

Well, I wouldn’t ever consider myself particularly depressed about myself, but if immense disappointment with the pathetic state of the world/politicization of everything and the human race as a whole counts as depression, then sure. Though I am still pretty much apathetic and indifferent to just about everything at the same time.

 

[Zirrboy]

Well, I wouldn’t ever consider myself particularly depressed about myself, but if immense disappointment with the pathetic state of the world/politicization of everything and the human race as a whole counts as depression, then sure. Though I am still pretty much apathetic and indifferent to just about everything at the same time.

We live in a society...

 

[EternalSunset0]

Alright, guys, real talk. Who here feels they are depressed? Or who here feels they have no reason to be depressed and are just drama queens who're unconsciously seeking attention, so they stay quiet and ignore what may well be very real problems simply because they don't believe they're worth the concern?

You can create alt accounts and answer if you wish.

Depressed per se, nope. Very anxious about the future, definitely.

I have been seeing a psychiatrist the past couple of weeks, if that says something? I never felt the need to take the prescribed medications, however.