TheEldritchGod
A Cloud Of Pure Spite And Eyes
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No.
So. I worked at a TLS. That means I worked where people getting out of the Mental Hospital would go afterwards. While they tried to get their lives together, they stayed in their apartments and they would come to me to talk, because I was the night shift. Basically, I was the 3am emergency counselor.
So this one guy, a paramedic, comes to the office and he's fucked up. I know when someone is thinking of killing themselves so I'm pulling out all the stops and I made the mistake of telling him, YOU CAN TELL ME ANYTHING. JUST GET IT OFF YOUR CHEST.
Holy. Mother Of God.
I got treated to two hours of him giving me a detailed account of how he had to go rescue a two year old baby girl who was raped by her step father. Why? Because the mother basically browbeat him into doing it, so she could FILM IT and try to sell the video on the internet.
That's how they caught her. She left the location tags on the video when she filmed with her phone.
Why the video? To feed her Fentanyl-Heroin Habit.
I will spare you the details because I try very hard to forget them and yet I still wake up screaming at night, but that's besides the point.
So. Tell me. What did that child do to deserve that? How does it fit in god's plan that the helpless child betrayed by her mother, a child who is now sterile because there is no way that child was having children herself, nor is that child ever likely to be able to live without a diaper because apparently she's going to be incontinent for the rest of her life? How does this FIT?
You see, if you agree with the existence of God, and he is all powerful, all seeing, and all knowing, then he knew about this. He decided this was for the best. Or maybe it's the devil's fault, then god isn't all powerful because he couldn't stop the devil. Or maybe it's because when we fell from grace at the garden of eden we asked god to butt out of our lives and because we asked him to leave us alone, he had no choice but to let this happen.
But he'll make up for it later, right?
Unless the girl gets addicted to pain killers herself and commits suicide. Which she did.
Because if you kill yourself, you go to Hell. It is murder after all, and you can NEVER repent in time for THAT murder.
If there is a god, I got some serious questions to ask him.
For me? Jesus? I'll pass. Because if there is a god, there is only one reason. Only one true answer to the question of "WHY?" when it comes to this child's life where apparently she was only born to live in pain then burn in hell.
SHE.
HAD.
IT.
COMING.
That's the answer. Why? She deserved it. How? We don't know, but God does. The only way this HORROR could exist in a world with God is if that Child deserved what happened to her. God had this happen, because that little girl deserved to be raped, deserved to live in agony, and deserved to go to hell for her sins.
And the paramedic? Who tried so hard to take care of that child, look out for her, watch over her, in the end, he could do NOTHING. And that was what broke him. Not the rape. Not the frantic attempt to do SOMETHING to reverse the damage after he found her. No. It was when she gave up and did the only thing she could to end the pain she was in.
I don't like that answer.
I like a world without god, because then I can say, she didn't deserve it. She didn't have it coming. She wasn't a bad person because bad things happened to her. I'm not a bad person because bad things happen to me. Because in a world with an omniscient, omnipresent, omnipotent just and loving god, there is no other answer than she was a terrible person who deserved to suffer.
Only a terrible person could have such horror happen to them.
So tell me, besides trotting out, "He works in mysterious ways" or some other such nonsense, by using logic and reason, explain to me where the flaw in my logic is? In what universe was this Just? or Good? or Right? Or even something God could stomach, because fuck knows I CAN'T, and I didn't even SEE IT. I'm just the guy the guy who was FUCKED UP BY THIS TALKED TO.
But if there is no god, this was just horrible. This is just the fact that the world is based in chaos, and life is order. We strive to bring order to this world by bringing life into this world. Sometimes that live gets mutated and like a cancer, the fucked up/mutated life starts destroying order in the world in favor of its cancerous existence.
I have no hatred for the mother or step-father. I know what Fentanyl-Heroin can do. I know what addiction does. If those two ever recovered from their addiction, I cannot imagine what hell their conscious is putting them through. I see no need to do anything other than let the justice system take care of them as it sees fit. Which in a way brings us back around to "Justice or Compensation"
I could spend hours giving you examples of people I know personally seeking Justice and how it always works out poorly. When it is horror on this scale, it is a terrible burden to place upon the shoulders of a single person. How the FUCK do you even begin to bring about some sort of justice for a horror on this scale. WHERE DO YOU BEGIN?
And after you begin, what does that do to YOU? YOU inflicting this level of pain on someone else so they suffer enough to balance this ledger? Unless you were a total sociopath, how could you live with knowing what you did, even if they deserved it? Once the rage is gone, the memory of what you did would remain. No... best to leave this to the courts so no one person has to shoulder that burden.
Then again, my samples all come from Criminals and the Insane, so... I guess my sample pool is tainted.
However, I have come to the conclusion that I hate Justice. I hate "fair". I want a world that is unfair. I want a world where everyone is happy, even if they don't deserve it. I think if those people had been happy, in a better life and better place, none of this would have happened.
If there was a button, I could press, to give everyone their own personal heaven. Everyone that ever was, is, and will be. From Hitler to Mother Teresa. I'd press that button. I'd want everyone, even if they did not deserve it, to be happy.
Your God Would NEVER Press That Button.
He could, if he's real, but he has already decided, for what ever reason, not to. And if he's real, that's fine. He can do that. He's God, but if he wants me to respect him, he'd better come up with a better reason than SHE HAD IT COMING. So, keep your Jesus. I prefer the belief that just because terrible things happen to me, I'm not a terrible person because of it.
So this one guy, a paramedic, comes to the office and he's fucked up. I know when someone is thinking of killing themselves so I'm pulling out all the stops and I made the mistake of telling him, YOU CAN TELL ME ANYTHING. JUST GET IT OFF YOUR CHEST.
Holy. Mother Of God.
I got treated to two hours of him giving me a detailed account of how he had to go rescue a two year old baby girl who was raped by her step father. Why? Because the mother basically browbeat him into doing it, so she could FILM IT and try to sell the video on the internet.
That's how they caught her. She left the location tags on the video when she filmed with her phone.
Why the video? To feed her Fentanyl-Heroin Habit.
I will spare you the details because I try very hard to forget them and yet I still wake up screaming at night, but that's besides the point.
So. Tell me. What did that child do to deserve that? How does it fit in god's plan that the helpless child betrayed by her mother, a child who is now sterile because there is no way that child was having children herself, nor is that child ever likely to be able to live without a diaper because apparently she's going to be incontinent for the rest of her life? How does this FIT?
You see, if you agree with the existence of God, and he is all powerful, all seeing, and all knowing, then he knew about this. He decided this was for the best. Or maybe it's the devil's fault, then god isn't all powerful because he couldn't stop the devil. Or maybe it's because when we fell from grace at the garden of eden we asked god to butt out of our lives and because we asked him to leave us alone, he had no choice but to let this happen.
But he'll make up for it later, right?
Unless the girl gets addicted to pain killers herself and commits suicide. Which she did.
Because if you kill yourself, you go to Hell. It is murder after all, and you can NEVER repent in time for THAT murder.
If there is a god, I got some serious questions to ask him.
For me? Jesus? I'll pass. Because if there is a god, there is only one reason. Only one true answer to the question of "WHY?" when it comes to this child's life where apparently she was only born to live in pain then burn in hell.
SHE.
HAD.
IT.
COMING.
That's the answer. Why? She deserved it. How? We don't know, but God does. The only way this HORROR could exist in a world with God is if that Child deserved what happened to her. God had this happen, because that little girl deserved to be raped, deserved to live in agony, and deserved to go to hell for her sins.
And the paramedic? Who tried so hard to take care of that child, look out for her, watch over her, in the end, he could do NOTHING. And that was what broke him. Not the rape. Not the frantic attempt to do SOMETHING to reverse the damage after he found her. No. It was when she gave up and did the only thing she could to end the pain she was in.
I don't like that answer.
I like a world without god, because then I can say, she didn't deserve it. She didn't have it coming. She wasn't a bad person because bad things happened to her. I'm not a bad person because bad things happen to me. Because in a world with an omniscient, omnipresent, omnipotent just and loving god, there is no other answer than she was a terrible person who deserved to suffer.
Only a terrible person could have such horror happen to them.
So tell me, besides trotting out, "He works in mysterious ways" or some other such nonsense, by using logic and reason, explain to me where the flaw in my logic is? In what universe was this Just? or Good? or Right? Or even something God could stomach, because fuck knows I CAN'T, and I didn't even SEE IT. I'm just the guy the guy who was FUCKED UP BY THIS TALKED TO.
But if there is no god, this was just horrible. This is just the fact that the world is based in chaos, and life is order. We strive to bring order to this world by bringing life into this world. Sometimes that live gets mutated and like a cancer, the fucked up/mutated life starts destroying order in the world in favor of its cancerous existence.
I have no hatred for the mother or step-father. I know what Fentanyl-Heroin can do. I know what addiction does. If those two ever recovered from their addiction, I cannot imagine what hell their conscious is putting them through. I see no need to do anything other than let the justice system take care of them as it sees fit. Which in a way brings us back around to "Justice or Compensation"
I could spend hours giving you examples of people I know personally seeking Justice and how it always works out poorly. When it is horror on this scale, it is a terrible burden to place upon the shoulders of a single person. How the FUCK do you even begin to bring about some sort of justice for a horror on this scale. WHERE DO YOU BEGIN?
And after you begin, what does that do to YOU? YOU inflicting this level of pain on someone else so they suffer enough to balance this ledger? Unless you were a total sociopath, how could you live with knowing what you did, even if they deserved it? Once the rage is gone, the memory of what you did would remain. No... best to leave this to the courts so no one person has to shoulder that burden.
Then again, my samples all come from Criminals and the Insane, so... I guess my sample pool is tainted.
However, I have come to the conclusion that I hate Justice. I hate "fair". I want a world that is unfair. I want a world where everyone is happy, even if they don't deserve it. I think if those people had been happy, in a better life and better place, none of this would have happened.
If there was a button, I could press, to give everyone their own personal heaven. Everyone that ever was, is, and will be. From Hitler to Mother Teresa. I'd press that button. I'd want everyone, even if they did not deserve it, to be happy.
Your God Would NEVER Press That Button.
He could, if he's real, but he has already decided, for what ever reason, not to. And if he's real, that's fine. He can do that. He's God, but if he wants me to respect him, he'd better come up with a better reason than SHE HAD IT COMING. So, keep your Jesus. I prefer the belief that just because terrible things happen to me, I'm not a terrible person because of it.