Unfortunately, I’m someone who’s hugely motivated by external feedback, haha. Without any outside pressure to put words to paper, I can (and have!) let my ideas marinate for YEARS. This isn’t exclusive to writing; I’m notorious for needing a deadline to get any work done. Sooo… I post my stuff online and turn that into the millstone hanging around my neck. I REALLY wish I could make myself into one of those people who sits down at a keyboard every day and plunks out pages just for themselves, but sometimes you gotta accept that the person you want to be and the person you are lead parallel lives lol.
ETA: Ah, I didn’t even touch the second half of the post, whoops ? Well, part of being someone who’s a little more extrinsically motivated is that I do definitely struggle to push myself if there’s no response, or if the response starts to taper off. But even without active readers, putting something Out ThereTM still gives me a standard to hold myself to, helps me establish a routine. Does it backfire occasionally? Yup LOL. But it’s better than letting myself languish!