I've had people tell me that.
Your first impulse is often to say, "Nah... I just did what anyone would do in that situation."
Nobody else did it. They weren't available. When someone calls you a hero, accept it. Thank them. Do not crow about it or preen, just accept it. Because when someone calls you a hero, it isn't for you.
It is for them.
When someone honestly calls you a hero, from the bottom of their heart, it is often because they were in a situation where all hope was lost and you saved them. Be it physically, mentally, socially, or spiritually. You "saved" them. People are rarely "saved". How often do you remember being "saved"? It is a burden. It is a debt. A debt you wish to repay because you are grateful.
The person who saved you, the "hero", rarely will understand that. If someone calls you a hero, honestly, not ironically, calls you a hero, it may be hard to understand because, in this world, we don't really present heroes to people. We don't TEACH heroes or give examples of heroes. Society has "evolved" past the need for heroes.
Bullshit.
Even if we don't have words for/experience with/been a hero, you know what it feels like when someone is a hero to you, even if you can't express it in words.
I was in an elevator once, a client was riding along with me to their room. We had just met at random. She turned to me and said, "You saved me, By the way. I'd be dead right now if it was not for you. When I was at my absolute limit last month, you came in and made me laugh and I decided not to kill myself. You are a hero and more people should know."
I almost blew it off as a joke.
Thankfully I realized it wasn't. I nodded and said, "It's an honor. I'm just glad I noticed you were having trouble. in the future, let me know. I'm kinda clueless at times and might miss it in the future. I mean this, no matter how bad my day, how tired I am, I hope you will have the courage to tell me you need help."
She smiled, nodded, and said she would, then left.
I have no idea who she was or what I did. I honestly do not remember her at all. I think I met her like... four times in the years I worked at TLS.
When someone calls you a hero, be grateful and show them a smile. Act like it means a lot to be called one, even if it doesn't. To that person, who you helped, accidentally saved without even knowing...
THEY NEED YOU TO KNOW THAT YOU ARE A HERO.
They don't want it, they NEED it. They need a smile from you and a nod and a "you're welcome". Because people need heroes. We need people we can look up to, to aspire to. People who we can try to emulate. Examples to follow. When someone says you are a hero, they are saying:
Thank you. I wish to be more like you.
In such a situation, you don't NEED to be perfect. Lord knows I am not. I am not someone ANYONE should aspire to be. But I can appear to be someone you can aspire to be. It doesn't matter if I am a hero, because all heroes have feet of clay. What matters is that they have a positive image of you, and strive to become that. Because they will improve in the process.
A hero inspires. Inspiring someone might be the best way to help someone.
I made some funny jokes, cheered someone up, and forgot all about them.
However, a year later she got out of the program, got over her addiction to Fentanyl, and even managed to get her child out of foster care and start to live on her own outside the program. No idea what happened after that, but on the last day she was in the program, she made a point to find me on the night shift and thank me for everything I did for her.
I talked to her maybe... three times.
She made me into something I wasn't. It doesn't matter. What she thought I was is what inspired her, and she became a better person for it. Her beliefs were built on misperception, but I did nothing to correct her.
If a thing works, it works. Let it work.
I don't feel like a hero.
I won't repeat myself. You can go through my past posts and read the story there. I have done horrible things to innocent people. If there is a Hell, there is a special place waiting for me. If I had a wish, it would be to undo everything I did, and if that was not possible, at least some form of redemption.
However, I realize now there is no way to ever balance those karmic scales, and I shouldn't even try. If I actually was trying to "balance the scales", I have to ask myself, "If I ever did enough to make up for everything I did, would I stop helping people?"
If the answer is yes, then I am not really trying to redeem myself. If the answer is no, then there is no point in keeping score.
In the end, I think what is important is to make the world a better place than you found it. Just keep doing that. Forget the mistakes you made, and from this point, going forward, do your best to make things better. There are no karmic scales. Doing "Good" does not balance out the "Bad". The bad still exists. This isn't a LitRPG. You do not have a karmic "score".
This is why I can be a monstrous bastard AND a saint-like hero at the same time.
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A hero isn't something that is defined easily. It is like porn, I can't tell you what it is, but I know it when I see it. How to become a hero is very difficult, but also very simple.
Suppress your rage. Overcome your fear. Act with courage and conviction.
Do your best to make the world better than you found it.
Society will decide if you are a hero or not. Be it a thousand people, or one person, someone else will decide if you are a hero. You might never know if you are a hero to someone else. They may not have the courage to say it, but if they do, accept the title and try to live up to it as best you can, because by simply accepting the title of hero, you may give someone something to aspire to. You may give them that single most precious thing that every man, woman, and child needs to survive in this fucked up world.
Hope.
Just another word for fool.
I'm sorry you think this way. I used to think like you, long ago. I do not anymore.
It is okay to be a hero. It is okay to aspire to be one as well. It is okay to have a hero, even if they are not perfect. I suspect you do not have one. I hope you find one someday. For what it is worth, I have yet to meet anyone who I found to be truly worthless or beyond redemption. The only thing a person needs is a desire to be better and regret for their failures. It sometimes helps to have someone to aspire to... a hero... if you will.
I have been a "fool" to many people.
The one that stands out the most is when a co-worker had a fork to her throat and the client had been off his drugs for a while and was basically having a complete psychotic break. He was experiencing three different worlds at once. A schizophrenic having a complete meltdown. There were snipers on the AIX building. Aliens crawling under his skin. He was God and serving god and in the army with his brain being kept in a jaw of an ass. And I mean the JAW of an ASS as in Mule.
I spent the longest fifteen minutes of my life stalling while I prayed for the cops to show up. I have never bullshitted so hard in my life. All these years of writing stories payed off in that 15 minutes as I followed his convoluted madness and random surreal stream of consciousness.
And on a lark, at the end, I said, "Well, as your commanding officer, I declare your assignment a complete success. Stand down. You are relieved of your weapon and duty. Please wait over there to be escorted to your next assignment."
And he did.
Three minutes later the CPEP squad FINALLY showed up and took him in.
Am I a fool?
Because Janet called me a hero, after that.
And I also collapsed shaking to the floor after they got him out of the room. I spend 15 minutes babbling madness with a madman and did not for one second think about how one wrong word would kill her. Nobody else in the room spoke or helped me. It was me, and me alone, just following his narration and making up things to fit in his rambling story as I went.
Literally, telling a story to save a life.
Most heroes are just normal people doing the best they can to do the right thing when nobody else does or can.
I know why you THINK a hero is a fool, but trust me, there is nothing foolish about altruism.