maybe not what I learned in 2026... except to SAY it.
Writing? Feels like, something bubbling up inside you.
A need. A craving.
Call it what you will, I don't care.
Some need to feel more important than you really are?
Some urge to prove that you're "thing x" and not one of the cattle on this earth?
Some desire to be... again, whatever.
But its there.
I can best relate it to a fighter.
A fighter was once described, as...
"You fight like something is trying to claw its way out of you"
and that's writing in a nutshell, at least to me.
I feel it more (or less) at different times.
Do people make fun? Sure do.
Usually along the following lines...
"Oh. Its sad." (they were thumbing through a large text)
"What's sad."
"This, need. To do something. Get some medication, that'll go away."
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yeah, well... I don't seek medication for it.
I refuse to accept that a desire to so "something" in this world, is a sickness.
How do I know? I've been writing since 2019. Did everything to put out a proper story.
Guess what? Nothing. Check out my story stats. Feedback always critique how I construct words (coz I'm not a native English speaker, I don't know and easily understand stuff). When I try to use AI to improve my writing, I get feedback saying that I don't remove flaws that made others avoid it in the first place.
What are the next suggestions? Write in my language. Problem is, Filipino pop literature have a small niche, and make it worse for me, coz I'm a guy and I can't write female-centered stories.
Study creative writing? I would if I could. I can only afford self-help books, which I also am having difficulty to understand. A creative writing short course here can fetch as high as 15k per session, something a public school teacher like me who earns 32k a month and has to buy insulin worth 3k a month (aside from my other maintenance meds and house utilities) can barely afford.
So, why did I stop writing? Practical reasons. I can't keep fueling my delusions forever. Delusions and daydreams won't bring food to my table, nor pay my bills and medicines.
Not to mention, my time. Alot of which goes into my work. And I also take care of my mother.
if you enjoy doing it, then do it.
damn it, there's enough "horrible translations" out there, getting millions of views...
you? could so easily, be one of those.
How do I know? I've been writing since 2019. Did everything to put out a proper story.
Guess what? Nothing. Check out my story stats. Feedback always critique how I construct words (coz I'm not a native English speaker, I don't know and easily understand stuff). When I try to use AI to improve my writing, I get feedback saying that I don't remove flaws that made others avoid it in the first place.
What are the next suggestions? Write in my language. Problem is, Filipino pop literature have a small niche, and make it worse for me, coz I'm a guy and I can't write female-centered stories.
Study creative writing? I would if I could. I can only afford self-help books, which I also am having difficulty to understand. A creative writing short course here can fetch as high as 15k per session, something a public school teacher like me who earns 32k a month and has to buy insulin worth 3k a month (aside from my other maintenance meds and house utilities) can barely afford.
So, why did I stop writing? Practical reasons. I can't keep fueling my delusions forever. Delusions and daydreams won't bring food to my table, nor pay my bills and medicines.
Not to mention, my time. Alot of which goes into my work. And I also take care of my mother.
if you enjoy doing it, then do it.
damn it, there's enough "horrible translations" out there, getting millions of views...
you? could so easily, be one of those.
How do I know? I've been writing since 2019. Did everything to put out a proper story.
I would be embarrassed to say exactly how many years I've been at this.
I put it down, I come back to it.
screw everyone, and whatever they think.
you *literally* never know, when you will create that one thing that makes it.