13. Sad Person
Bazette had always been a pathetic man.
She cares a lot about what she has, and has been afraid of losing something from the beginning. But even so, she has been losing things all her life so far, and has never really owned anything important.
When she was little, she was afraid of losing and therefore could not enjoy her childhood well, so her biggest childhood memory was the heroic story about Cu Chulainn recorded in the study at home.
And such a childhood was the beginning of her miserable life.
Because she was very enthusiastic about Cu Chulainn's deeds, she liked his free and easy attitude towards life, and also yearned for the scenery and adventure that belonged to a hero. However, the ancient magic family she belonged to in Ireland had always maintained the idea of seclusion from the world.
So when Bazett was fifteen years old, he truly understood that the life his family brought him was not what he really wanted.
It was also in this year that the fifteen-year-old Bazette broke the family tradition and came to the Magic Association alone despite his parents' objections.
At first glance, this sounds like the beginning of a heroic epic.
In fact, after she arrived at the Magic Association, she was indeed warmly welcomed by the Magic Association.
This made Bazett feel that leaving might be the best decision he had ever made.
But unfortunately these are all fake.
The Magic Association's attitude towards her was just formal courtesy. In fact, the Magic Association only treated her as a living specimen of rare magic, and the rank given to her was also a sacrificial position for monsters to gather.
Then, Bazette left the protection of his family and from that moment on began to understand what the family had brought to him under the cumbersome rules and traditions that he disliked.
When Bazett came to the Magic Association, what he experienced was not the glory and adventure of a hero, but the hardship and difficulty of life.
At that time, she didn't even have a place to live, and she couldn't even make ends meet. The income issue was a more terrifying challenge than the most powerful monster she had imagined as a child.
This put Bazette in a vicious circle.
She ran away in order not to blend in with the crowd like the other people in the family and live an ordinary life whose end could be seen at a glance. Now, in order to embark on the first step of the hero's road, that is, to solve her own food and clothing problems, she lives a life that is more tiring, harder, and more ordinary than the others in the family.
After experiencing the hardships, Bazett missed his old-fashioned but stable home for the first time after going out.
The heroic fantasy was shattered as the girl grew up.
But she didn't want to go back in such a miserable state, and she had no way of going back in such a miserable state.
In her expectation, even if she wanted to go back, she should return with a cloak full of glory and honor, and be welcomed by her family members and be proud of her. She should never be in a miserable state and beg for food all the way home.
And even if she managed to beg for food at home, she would no longer be accepted by the family because she had broken the family tradition and could not bring back any benefits.
Therefore, in order to stand out one day, Bazett accepted the position of the designated executor of the seal, thereby accumulating achievements and fame.
Her magic was naturally suitable for combat, and she had fantasized about living a heroic life since she was a child, so she was not averse to combat. This led to her being gradually recognized as one of the strongest designated executors of the seal throughout the ages.
And what this evaluation brings is
Those magi who consider themselves orthodox and pursue the root of the problem are called "hounds" and "magicians" with contempt.
There is also increasingly heavy and dangerous work.
Have you achieved success with this kind of self?
Bazette himself had no answer.
Because the little girl who was afraid of losing and hid in the study to read the story of Cu Chulainn and then yearned to be a hero is dead, and because of her death, Bazett lost his dream and his smile.
Because the fifteen-year-old girl who once rebelled against her family and her fate for fear of losing her dreams is now dead, and because of her death, Bazett has lost his family and his innocence.
Even the impoverished magician who once struggled for a living and realized the hardships of life but still dared to curse life died. Bazett, who felt more exhausted because of her death, lost the passion and persistence of his youth.
Just like that, she, who longed for the glory and adventure of a hero, fought back desperately and worked hard...and ended up living the same ordinary and inconspicuous life as everyone else in her family, like a gear.
In the process she lost almost everything she had ever considered important.
Maybe if I hadn't left home, I wouldn't have lost so much?
Bazette herself didn't know the answer to this question, because she gradually stopped having such doubts.
Accepting missions, carrying out missions, completing missions... During that period, Bazette lived like a gear, like a machine.
Until she met the man named Kotomine Kirei.
Six years ago, Bazette received a mission to deal with a magician who attempted to use corpses to recreate souls, but the operation failed and her companions died. It was at that time that she met Kotomine Kirei, who was an agent of the church and performed the same mission, and all his companions also died.
In the end, the matter ended with Bazett and Kotomine Kirei secretly joining forces. The magician was killed and his body was recovered by the Magic Association, so that the two survived and completed their respective missions.
After that, the two of them met many times due to missions, and they tacitly agreed not to report their private matters to the organization.
At that time, Bazette, who had been living in a daze, finally began to think again. She seemed to have something important again - that was the precious treasure called "friends".
So during the Fifth Holy Grail War, she came to Fuyuki City without hesitation because the supervisor, Kotomine Kirei, recommended her to participate.
Bazette trusted Kotomine Kirei very much.
Because for Bazette, who has lost almost everything, Kotomine Kirei, a friend who can keep secrets with her and fight side by side with her, is the only thing she has at this time.
She then lived in a ghost mansion in Fuyuki City, using the runestone earrings as a catalyst to summon Lancer.
Later, he discovered that Lancer was actually Cu Chulainn, the man he admired as a child.
Everything seemed to be changing for the better, and Bazette seemed to be accumulating important things again.
Can...
At this moment, the left hand engraved with the Command Seal had been cut off, and the vital parts were pierced. Bazette fell on the ground in a pool of her own blood. Feeling the strength and temperature gradually draining from her body, she raised her head with all her might, looking at her 'friend' who had merged into the darkness and was looking down at her indifferently. She didn't understand.
"Why......"
Obviously, she trusted her friend Kotomine Kirei so much.
She even trusted him so much that when she sent her servants out to investigate intelligence, Kotomine Kirei came to visit her, and she also welcomed him warmly.
I trusted him so much that I gave him my back without hesitation.
And what we got in return is everything we have now.
The opponent first pierced his vitals with the Black Key, and then cut off his left hand because he was afraid that he would use the Command Spell to recall the Servant...
Why on earth is this happening?!
If the current Bazette was still the Bazette before she met Kotomine Kirei, then she might not think about anything and would just wait for her death calmly... After all, she would be like a robot at that time, with nothing, and would not feel too sorry for losing her life.
But Kotomine Kirei first taught the robot what happiness is, then put important things into the robot's hands one by one, and then took everything away from the robot at the happiest moment...
So Bazette didn't understand.
She wanted Kotomine Kirei to give her an explanation.
No matter how cold or crazy the explanation may be...
She just wanted an explanation, an answer.
but......
Kotomine Kirei did not respond to her. He just turned around silently and walked towards the gate of the Phantom Mansion, as if he had completely ignored her, as if he was discarding a useless prop.
His actions were even sharper than the black key he had used to pierce Bazett's heart.
Bazette, who was lying on the ground, had gradually lost her strength, but she still tried her best to look at Kotomine Kirei's back.
She doesn't want to die!
I don't want to die with this doubt!
so.
Whoever it is, please hear my prayer.
I'm willing to give anything.
Please, help me...
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