What are your crutches?

Bartun

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When most people think of crutches they think of smoking or drinking but there are more, less noticeable crutches. For example, anything that relaxes you can be considered a crutch. Reading, getting a massage, spending time with friends, or even just taking a nice bath can be considered crutches. What do you think are your crutches and how do they help you get through the day?
I've lost the motivation to continue living and honestly, writing my story is the only thing that keeps me going. Nothing motivates me more than the thought of getting that story out of my head and sharing it with the world. I know it sounds pathetic, but that's how I feel.
 

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I've lost the motivation to continue living and honestly, writing my story is the only thing that keeps me going. Nothing motivates me more than the thought of getting that story out of my head and sharing it with the world. I know it sounds pathetic, but that's how I feel.
Maybe you should look for something to help you want to live. I used to feel the same way and it's why I started writing but I found more to live for. Maybe try out new things and see if any of them interests you. Perhaps writing or something else could help you regain that motivation to live?
 

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As the caretaker of two annoying brats I recommend it.
Alright. though you have to be careful in your bullying. Send them on a quest to find something that doesn't exist in the store while you are in the middle of checking out or something similar so that they don't notice that they are being bullied.
 

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Let's see...

If I am procrastinating on work, listening to a song and playing on match of freecell can help me get back to focus.

If I am feeling troubled about something and am having a hard time talking about it, I tend to naturally avoid eye-contact with who I am talking to, and also tend to start moving my fingers through my hair as well.

If I am feeling sad and troubled and need help with something, I talk to my boyfriend primarily, and then also talk to my psychologists on our weekly appointments.
Oh, and this too, I guess~

After 5 years of trying and failing to work at home-office, Ritalin definitely made a difference~
 

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I've lost the motivation to continue living and honestly, writing my story is the only thing that keeps me going. Nothing motivates me more than the thought of getting that story out of my head and sharing it with the world. I know it sounds pathetic, but that's how I feel.

I used to be exactly the same, telling myself these stories are good, and I am the -only one- who can write them down. Then one day something switched in my head, and I started seeing that story as cringe. Thus I lost all motivation to write it and to share it.

Idiotic "feedbacks" I got from people I can only consider the lowest common denominator on some other sites (such as: didn't read the synopsis, complaints about something the synopsis warned about) didn't help either. Made me question why am I even writing it several hours a day like a maniac, what's the point of sharing it if most people are like that.

The result is, I am still depressed, and all my stories are now on hiatus.
 

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I used to do the same. If it's not too rude, what's your job? Have you ever thought about working in artistic fields?




No worry, nobody got offended.

I just think it'd be a too bad to mistake what's the core of the self for something inadequate and unneeded, hence my intervention
I am heavily disabled and live off a fixed income. Though these days you can say my job is being a househusband. As for considering the artistic fields, you can say I have. I've even made some money off of it in my lifetime too, though nothing to reliably depend on. Strangely enough, I am a little afraid of it. I have a kind of obsession; this is related to my love of reading, and stories, and language in general. It is difficult to describe, but I am obsessed with something in the underlying rhythm and flow of words. It is why my primary artistry tends to be poetry. Not much money there.
 

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I am heavily disabled and live off a fixed income. Though these days you can say my job is being a househusband. As for considering the artistic fields, you can say I have. I've even made some money off of it in my lifetime too, though nothing to reliably depend on. Strangely enough, I am a little afraid of it. I have a kind of obsession; this is related to my love of reading, and stories, and language in general. It is difficult to describe, but I am obsessed with something in the underlying rhythm and flow of words. It is why my primary artistry tends to be poetry. Not much money there.

Reading might be an obsessive addiction for you, but I'd dare say that reading is not universally addictive. That's why I'd suggest that it's a trait of your own character. In fact, the human mind is programmed to be addicted to its primary functions or everyone would get hooked on drugs while doing nothing.

You may entertain the thought that your mind is diseased and sick for prioritizing such things that have no immediate use in the concrete world. It's easy to envy people who navigates so easily in the physical world, loving cleaning and cooking and all without getting distracted by anything. It's easy to realize that you "lack" something when what you priority makes such a visible mess on the physical life. It's easy to get depressed over the inadequacy of your personality to navigate the real world and the feeling of alienation from other people.

Regardless of how much the conscious mind is jealous of other's people disposition, it acts as the bridge between the subconscious and the real world. The subconscious is an inflexible, chained self; a bundle of instincts refined through countless generations of ancestors. It's a multi-objective optimization machine, and its objective weights were set by fate. It determines everything that is important to each individual, and we have little say on this matter.

Is life obbjectively valuable? No it's our innate fear of death, the sadness left by the void, and the disgust of seeing a life extinguish that teach us that. And it's even questionable, as killing a mosquito or fly probably doesn't even arouse anything but joy.

If your rational mind tell that its current subconscious is unfit for life, the latter might as well kill itself from hopelessness. But instead, the rationale mind's duty is to try and make it work, no matter what. The conscious mind's duty is less about judging the subconscious and more about doing its utmost to understand and serve the subconscious' agenda. This is Maslow's self-actualization to manifest one's unique potential (only topped by the visceral need of tax evasion). Each human has the deep desire to give back value to the world thousand folds what they consumed through their own potential.

This life quest is more durable and resilient than the drive for money or reward. “If anyone on the verge of action should judge himself according to the outcome, he would never begin.” ― Søren Kierkegaard, Fear and Trembling. It's a mistake to think that humans spend efforts and take risks solely based on end goals (on long term basis). In practice, we see that some jobs attract specific type of personality (creating stereotypes) instead of being diverse.

In conclusion, you may treat reading addiction as a liability and clinical problem. I want to raise the possibility that it could be the other way around.

People aren't equal when it comes to how they're born. Sometimes, you get a shitty roll and your subconscious that's hella hard to redeem.

I'd say loving the art's medium is much rarer than loving the art's content. Not everyone can enjoy the medium's hidden beauty, while the content speaks to the subconscious to create feelings. Like how abstract painting (putting more emphasis on the strokes, the rhythm, etc) is more a niche (and maybe a money laundering meme). Since it's rarer, it might make it harder to please to wide audiences, but on the other hand it could make your writing unique.

The only thing I can do is to cheer you as you struggle with yourself.

And don't think you might be limited to reading. It's a mere single face of the iceberg of your being. I found myself that my passion for drawing can be transposed equally to both writing and music. I know my skills and my way to fulfill myself would have been shaped differently in other circumstances.
 

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Reading might be an obsessive addiction for you, but I'd dare say that reading is not universally addictive. That's why I'd suggest that it's a trait of your own character. In fact, the human mind is programmed to be addicted to its primary functions or everyone would get hooked on drugs while doing nothing.

You may entertain the thought that your mind is diseased and sick for prioritizing such things that have no immediate use in the concrete world. It's easy to envy people who navigates so easily in the physical world, loving cleaning and cooking and all without getting distracted by anything. It's easy to realize that you "lack" something when what you priority makes such a visible mess on the physical life. It's easy to get depressed over the inadequacy of your personality to navigate the real world and the feeling of alienation from other people.

Regardless of how much the conscious mind is jealous of other's people disposition, it acts as the bridge between the subconscious and the real world. The subconscious is an inflexible, chained self; a bundle of instincts refined through countless generations of ancestors. It's a multi-objective optimization machine, and its objective weights were set by fate. It determines everything that is important to each individual, and we have little say on this matter.

Is life obbjectively valuable? No it's our innate fear of death, the sadness left by the void, and the disgust of seeing a life extinguish that teach us that. And it's even questionable, as killing a mosquito or fly probably doesn't even arouse anything but joy.

If your rational mind tell that its current subconscious is unfit for life, the latter might as well kill itself from hopelessness. But instead, the rationale mind's duty is to try and make it work, no matter what. The conscious mind's duty is less about judging the subconscious and more about doing its utmost to understand and serve the subconscious' agenda. This is Maslow's self-actualization to manifest one's unique potential (only topped by the visceral need of tax evasion). Each human has the deep desire to give back value to the world thousand folds what they consumed through their own potential.

This life quest is more durable and resilient than the drive for money or reward. “If anyone on the verge of action should judge himself according to the outcome, he would never begin.” ― Søren Kierkegaard, Fear and Trembling. It's a mistake to think that humans spend efforts and take risks solely based on end goals (on long term basis). In practice, we see that some jobs attract specific type of personality (creating stereotypes) instead of being diverse.

In conclusion, you may treat reading addiction as a liability and clinical problem. I want to raise the possibility that it could be the other way around.

People aren't equal when it comes to how they're born. Sometimes, you get a shitty roll and your subconscious that's hella hard to redeem.

I'd say loving the art's medium is much rarer than loving the art's content. Not everyone can enjoy the medium's hidden beauty, while the content speaks to the subconscious to create feelings. Like how abstract painting (putting more emphasis on the strokes, the rhythm, etc) is more a niche (and maybe a money laundering meme). Since it's rarer, it might make it harder to please to wide audiences, but on the other hand it could make your writing unique.

The only thing I can do is to cheer you as you struggle with yourself.

And don't think you might be limited to reading. It's a mere single face of the iceberg of your being. I found myself that my passion for drawing can be transposed equally to both writing and music. I know my skills and my way to fulfill myself would have been shaped differently in other circumstances.
This is weirdly philosophical from the funny 'honk honk' smut truck.

I like it.
 

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I used to be exactly the same, telling myself these stories are good, and I am the -only one- who can write them down. Then one day something switched in my head, and I started seeing that story as cringe. Thus I lost all motivation to write it and to share it.

Idiotic "feedbacks" I got from people I can only consider the lowest common denominator on some other sites (such as: didn't read the synopsis, complaints about something the synopsis warned about) didn't help either. Made me question why am I even writing it several hours a day like a maniac, what's the point of sharing it if most people are like that.

The result is, I am still depressed, and all my stories are now on hiatus.
Yeah, I get that feeling too sometimes, although I think the cringe moments are inevitable, I also think it is only situational. I still think that my story is great and could potentially rival other great science-fiction franchises, if only I could write it down that's it. Of course, that's only me, other people may think differently.

I try to revisit the moments I think are good, I've been thinking about this story for so long that I even dream about it. I still haven't received the idiotic feedback that you mention yet, in fact, I haven't received much feedback at all. Although my story is far from finished and I only published a small fragment. The few comments and criticism I've received have been very kind.

I try to dedicate fully to this story because as I mentioned, it means a lot to me. This is not only an idea I came up with one day, it's the result of a whole life of dreaming, daydreaming, imagining, and drawing. I have wasted my life for so long and for the first time in my life, I'm happy, I want to do something and I feel I'm creating something good!

At least, that's what I figure.
 

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Watching Wisecrack and other youtubers' works like Game Theory.

Biting my fingers until they bleed and slowly suckling them.

Sleep.

Coffee.

Walking around.

Staring at the ceiling and contemplating about the meaningless of life.

Jerking off to porn.

Mindlessly use my knife to stab wooden planks cuz cardboard is too soft.

Cleaning the entire house while listening to podcast from CGPGrey.

Reading webnovels... I have a long time from flipping an actual book.

Shitposting in SHF (not NUF cuz no one would respond).
 

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I have my clay with me, I like to make pots, you can gimme a picture of avase or a pot and I'll try to make it, minus the design
 

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Wasn't meant to be racist. I just don't know what to call Romanian vases or pots nor do I know what they look like.
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If you wanna be racist, atleast be correct about the race, I'm Indian.
The south east asian kind
 
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