Trauma?? Tell me

[Clo]

Trauma? I spent 40 years thinking I was mentally broken. Getting a diagnostic helps a little bit, but decades of hating yourself is hard to undo.

I also have been raised thinking 99% meant I should have tried harder.

That's also very hard to break after decades of acting like everything I do is never good enough.

 

[Lysander_Works]

My brain tried to fabricate childhood trauma that never actually happened.
It didn't work though.

 

[CarburetorThompson]

When I was young, lIke really young. I couldn’t swallow pills without choking, I also had a medicine I needed to take. Because of that I had to get the pills distilled into a liquid substance and drink it.

It was the most horrible thing I can imagine tasting and I had to drink every day for a little over a year. Because I was so young, it messed me up a bit and I became a super picky eater.

 

[Clo]

I don't actually experience strong emotions. Neither good nor bad.

Alexythimia, or anhedonia?

I suffer from both, although the second I have figured out the reason behind it. I am doing better now that I addressed that part of myself.

 

[SRB]

Alexythimia, or anhedonia?

I suffer from both, although the second I have figured out the reason behind it. I am doing better now that I addressed that part of myself.

Huh. That's an actual thing? Never thought it could be, to be honest...

 

[Deleted member 146224]

Being happy. Somehow everything turns to shit the second I'm happy.

 

[RedMuffin]

Being happy. Somehow everything turns to shit the second I'm happy.

You... Who are you???

 

[Clo]

Huh. That's an actual thing? Never thought it could be, to be honest...

Sure is! You're not alone. Whether it's because you simply don't feel much, or that you struggle to identify your feelings and put words to them, you have peers, out there (like me) who managed to live fulfilling lives with good career despite it all.

 

[Deleted member 146224]

You... Who are you???
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I'm the daikon, ye cupcake bastard

 

[RedMuffin]

I'm the daikon, ye cupcake bastard

 

[Nevafrost]

Hmmm... There's quite a lot I could mention but the ones that stuck to me are being abused and treated like shit when pandemic fell. With nowhere to go, It felt like I was a bird in a cage. Another one is seeing both of my parents almost kill themselves. Third is prolly... Getting sexually assaulted when I was younger not surpassing the age of ten if I remember through being drugged.

I'm now doing fine though, these experiences doesn't really make me flinch anymore... Maybe? idk, but I'm good for now I guess. I'm used to dealing with my emotions that I can live with these experiences like nothing now. It did gave me ptsd but not so much anymore.(I feel like it's non-existent even)

Though, sometimes, no, mostly, I suffer from low self esteem. Hopelessness and feeling worthless/useless. It's been a problem lately but I'm trying to be better and improve myself slowly. It's hard but yiiee that's life so you just move forward no matter what.

Actually, I could go on and on and list how many shits I experienced when I was a kid but that would take forever to write. But ye, these are the things that stuck to me.

(I'll delete this message later)

I actually don’t feel like I'm traumatized or anything. But, the people around me sometimes tell me that I should go see a psychiatrist. I dunno, I guess you should see one if you haven’t yet. Those are fucked up experiences.

I had a shitty childhood with abusive figures. Later in life I had friends who took their own lives. It was only as I got older I started realizing my childhood was abnormal when I shared stories, and I didn't feel anything about it for a long time. That was until I realized that I was numb, so when I started working through some things, several emotions surfaced. I didn't even know it was possible to cry about things later that I felt nothing at the time it happened.

Us moment. I never thought things were abnormal until someone told me so. I mean, I have experienced those since childhood. How am I supposed to know that it’s not normal?

My brain tried to fabricate childhood trauma that never actually happened.
It didn't work though.

That's actually traumatizing

When I was young, lIke really young. I couldn’t swallow pills without choking, I also had a medicine I needed to take. Because of that I had to get the pills distilled into a liquid substance and drink it.

It was the most horrible thing I can imagine tasting and I had to drink every day for a little over a year. Because I was so young, it messed me up a bit and I became a super picky eater.

Childhood traumas are real