I hope when i die i become nothing... imagine living for eternity how boring
What a shame. To have the essence of you lost to the ashes of time, yet you would not shed a tear at your own passing. Tragic.
The Afterlife.
The continuation of you past the point of the physical existence of you. A thought that weighs heavily on my mind. My wife, cursed at birth, dies ever day a slow and painful death as her body betrays her. Slowly her lungs turn into scar tissue resulting in a death by inches. There is no way to reverse the damage, only slow the progress.
She chooses to believe in reincarnation.
She speak of use being together again. Something I would wish for myself. I am happy when I am with her, and my soul has a hole when she is absent. I may be doing most of the work around the house, but I cannot fathom how I could live without her. My life is so much better with her in it.
She has spoken of ending her own life.
If I was not begging her to stay, I suspect she'd already have done it. She remains here, suffering, so that I can return home to her. Because when she dies, it will no longer be a home.
If there is an afterlife, it would be grand, but I suspect not. I have no belief that this life is fair, and as such I have no reason to believe the next one would be fair either. I'm good with this.
If life was fair, that would mean my wife has deserved the years of pain and torture she has gone through. A world that is fair is a horrible thought.
Why would the next world be any better? Entropy increases and must be fought at all times. Life has the purpose of giving order to the universe. The afterlife as described by most sounds too easy. It sounds like wishful thinking.
But my wife wishes to believe in it. If that thought gives her some small amount of comfort, who am I to say otherwise? It would be grand, if it was true. Alas, I fear if there was an afterlife that was full of people, it wouldn't be any different from here.