Emotional damage!

TheMonotonePuppet

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I was wondering. Have any of you had a dream that genuinely hurt? That left an indelible imprint in your mind?

I had a terrible dream last night. It started with mom showing me my phone and looking at me with a deeply disappointed expression. It was gut-wrenching and it infuriated me. The sheer gall she has to criticize me after all she has done to me. The dream had been the first I’ve seen her face in months, so it was as if we had finally reunited and yet again, she was shaming me. I had raised a fist for a punch, throwing it, and she… hugged me.
The shock, confusion, hurt, pain, and disbelief were so strong I woke up.

It’s so twisted, when your own subconscious decides to traumatize you.

And in the end, none of it matters, because it was all a dream.
 

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The people in my dream called me, and I quote verbatim, "a blind idiot god". That hurt
What was the plot of the dream? That’s interesting. My condolences.
Yeah, I cried for five minutes when I woke up from that. I won't tell you why.
That’s fine. Just know that this is a safe space. I hope time blunts its scars.
Some are too rough to mention for some people, and that’s ok.
I’ve had multiple nightmares where I’m being chased, beaten, and r***ed and I won’t go into detail for them, because it is too much emotionally painful for me, so I wholly understand.
 

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I was wondering. Have any of you had a dream that genuinely hurt? That left an indelible imprint in your mind?

I had a terrible dream last night. It started with mom showing me my phone and looking at me with a deeply disappointed expression. It was gut-wrenching and it infuriated me. The sheer gall she has to criticize me after all she has done to me. The dream had been the first I’ve seen her face in months, so it was as if we had finally reunited and yet again, she was shaming me. I had raised a fist for a punch, throwing it, and she… hugged me.
The shock, confusion, hurt, pain, and disbelief were so strong I woke up.

It’s so twisted, when your own subconscious decides to traumatize you.

And in the end, none of it matters, because it was all a dream.
There was this one time I dreamt of the girl I courted, and for some reason, I was angry at her.

I woke up with lingering pain and sadness. I don't know. Well, even when she rejected me, I was not angry at her. Hurt, yes, but mad? Nope. I still love her though.
 

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There was this one time I dreamt of the girl I courted, and for some reason, I was angry at her.

I woke up with lingering pain and sadness. I don't know. Well, even when she rejected me, I was not angry at her. Hurt, yes, but mad? Nope. I still love her though.
Sometimes dreams to show us wielding emotions that are so out of place for the situation we are in. It gets strange.
I wonder how some situations would feel if I felt a different emotion than I had.
How instead would you feel waking up from that dream if instead of the strange anger there was nothing but stranger hilarity in this heart-breaking dream?
Perhaps even considering it is not possible.

Regardless of my curiosity, I hope you will have the time needed to heal the wounds. To put myself in your shoes, it is heartache-inducing, and I would loathe myself for feeling angry even if it wasn’t my fault, but rather my subconscious. I hope you don’t shame or hate yourself for that. You don’t deserve that.
 
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I commonly have nightmares. They effect my physical and emotional health. I have some where I'm being stabbed to death often. I have some where people see all of my insecurities.

I almost always remember my dreams. Betrayal is a common theme. It's no joke when you see people in a uniform you used to wear stabbing you to death.

I had a similar recent nightmare as you. I got back in contact with a family member who I had cut off, but she didn't try to make up. She still gaslighted me and tried to use me.
 

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Sometimes dreams to show us wielding emotions that are so out of place for the situation we are in. It gets strange.
I wonder how some situations would feel if I felt a different emotion than I had.
How instead would you feel waking up from that dream if instead of the strange anger there was nothing but stranger hilarity in this heart-breaking dream?
Perhaps even considering it is not possible.

Regardless of my curiosity, I hope you will have the time needed to heal the wounds. To put myself in your shoes, it is heartache-inducing, and I would loathe myself for feeling angry even if it wasn’t my fault, but rather my subconscious. I hope you don’t shame or hate yourself for that. You don’t deserve that.
Thank you for your words. Well, even after years, I still haven't got over her. And yeah, I won't geta mad at her; she can always choose the man she'll love anyway, which she already did.

It's a one-sided love nowadays. But I'm happy she has found her happiness.
 

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I actually haven't had a nightmare since I got that dream catcher like 10 or so years back. In fact, when I had the dream catcher, it felt as if I never dreamed at all. It was odd, too. We'd get one in the mail every year from some random company. They tried to get us with gifts so they could butter us up to subscribing to whatever they were selling. I've since moved it to another room in an effort to regain the ability to dream. Funnily enough, it worked. It's weird because I don't particularly subscribe to spiritual practices, and it's probably a case of correlation, not cause...ation, but I still haven't had a nightmare since I got one. My dreams are mostly peaceful. Sometimes boring. One time, I went grocery shopping with my mom in my dream. Which is weird because my dad usually does that. I often have dreams relating to books or shows I watch before bed. One thing is consistent, though. I'm always happier in my dreams. Less stressed, really. That's why I moved the dream catcher in the first place. To find peace while I rest. That's what actually makes a concept like an infinite multi-verse depressing to me. For every wish i've ever made, like wishing for magic powers as a kid or winning the lottery as an adult, there is a universe where it happened. Yet I still live in this one.
 

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I commonly have nightmares. They effect my physical and emotional health. I have some where I'm being stabbed to death often. I have some where people see all of my insecurities.

I almost always remember my dreams. Betrayal is a common theme. It's no joke when you see people in a uniform you used to wear stabbing you to death.

I had a similar recent nightmare as you. I got back in contact with a family member who I had cut off, but she didn't try to make up. She still gaslighted me and tried to use me.
Being stabbed to death is a reoccurring theme, both by my hand, by my friends’, and by others. Yours certainly has a more visceral component; a more meaningfully personal attack through your time in the military. My condolences for the excess of pain heaped on you atop the vivid imagery and mental pain of being stabbed in a dream.

Thank you for sharing a similar experience to mine. I feel heard. Those related to us may always be unrepentant, for better or in these cases, for worse.
I actually haven't had a nightmare since I got that dream catcher like 10 or so years back. In fact, when I had the dream catcher, it felt as if I never dreamed at all. It was odd, too. We'd get one in the mail every year from some random company. They tried to get us with gifts so they could butter us up to subscribing to whatever they were selling. I've since moved it to another room in an effort to regain the ability to dream. Funnily enough, it worked. It's weird because I don't particularly subscribe to spiritual practices, and it's probably a case of correlation, not cause...ation, but I still haven't had a nightmare since I got one. My dreams are mostly peaceful. Sometimes boring. One time, I went grocery shopping with my mom in my dream. Which is weird because my dad usually does that. I often have dreams relating to books or shows I watch before bed. One thing is consistent, though. I'm always happier in my dreams. Less stressed, really. That's why I moved the dream catcher in the first place. To find peace while I rest. That's what actually makes a concept like an infinite multi-verse depressing to me. For every wish i've ever made, like wishing for magic powers as a kid or winning the lottery as an adult, there is a universe where it happened. Yet I still live in this one.
It’s nice to inject some positivity into these conversations. I appreciate being able to see you freed from these experiences. It is a small blessing that the dream catcher helps.
Don’t worry, lol! I’m pretty sure causation is a word! It just doesn’t have an ‘e’.
My older sister had a dream catcher. It added a nice bit of character to her room, but I don’t know whether it helped her.
I’ve never thought on my own perspective toward the multiverse, but now that I am, there’s a sense of bitterness and jealousy in myself as well.
 
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I had a nightmare of a dream where a person very important to me died,it wasn't good and i don't like going back to remembering the dream.
My dreams have run the gamut of all 9 of my immediate family members. Those dreams are always excruciating. I understand not wanting to recount it.?
 
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Conversing to this person in front of me in which couldn't remember.
Whatever done damage, at the end was a phrase "Farewell and goodbye"
Used that sentence months ago to leave 'friends' who were silent.
Enough to force me to fight sleep and made me teared at the end.
Whoever it was be it myself, wife ,friends, a failed life from before/another world.
This is my only chance of redemption.

Thank you for your question for deep within me, some darkness has swept away.
 

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Had good ones, bad ones, fucked up ones where I cried. Even had one where I was raped and I'm not sure if it was real or not. Problem is my dreams become a little lucid. Lucid enough to feel the experience, but not lucid enough to control it.

I've only had that happen a single time where I had control and it was ripped from me by a dark shadow. I woke up in the middle of the night, looked around, shrugged my shoulders and went back to sleep.

Then the black shadow followed me into my next few dreams. Closer and closer each time. Creepy shit.

But my dreams definitely influenced me in a negative light. When I was six years old, I had two reoccurring nightmares. One was my family walking out the door as I chased them, screaming for help as a monster chased me. However, they just ignored me and drove away as the monster caught me. That dream stopped happening when it felt like real life one time and that monster grabbed my shoulder and made me turn around. I saw it's face and my vision went into a TV static kind of deal.

The other dream was something I dreaded when I was younger. It was me running away from my family members, the ones I thought loved me, as they chased me with machetes. But a six year old kid can't run very far and they catch me every time. I felt my body get slashed and cut into pieces. Then I'd wake up screaming, still feeling the pain. These two dreams continued, along with other bad ones, for several years until eleven years old when I stopped caring.

Doesn't bother me anymore. And because of what happened when I was younger, I don't see bad dreams as nightmares anymore.
 

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Whenever my dreams head into a direction I don't like, I either realize I'm dreaming and travel back in time/teleport away, or force myself to wake up.
 
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