PS : Writing last sentence reminded me that you basically dodged being conscripted for war. You sure dodged a bullet. (no pun intended) (pun : more like dodged a drone lol)
PPS : Context for others, yes SRB near was sent to war.
Heck, even a USA family dad of 3 that moved to russia was...
Its like a depressed patient that keep listening to depressed songs.
Will he gets better bc of the songs ? No.
Not to say that happy songs would work, but at least it is better than depressing songs that risk worsening the state or keeping the status quo.
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All to say. TLDR :
Please...
I mean, escapism is bad.
But reminding of bad things is also bad.
Ever heard this crazy news of women screaming together (paying) in the forest for destressing ?
Yes screaming help, but in fact it secretly worsen state.
Bc anger begets more anger (even if expelling it).
Same for depressing...
Well.
Having a "cloudy" sky banner. Full of smog, that is like chi#na.
And a "sad russia" part.
Sure doesnt help for your mental health SRB :blob_neutral:
Ex:
What if you got a "horror/guro" painting in your room ? Thats this kind of effect.
(funny anecdote, someone once bought me a horror fps game bc sales long ago, it made me understand this logic)
Exemple2 hyperbole:
Imagine having a steam game library full of Cats
and then having a WARHAMMER...
Srb.
I also want to talk about your banner (as its related to my topic of blue sky).
Do you know ?
That possessing something, has a defacto effect on its possessor ? (also yes, fangshui is a thing, but in fact its bc of human brains itself, subconsciously)
In some documentaries, some old people live until 100 despite drinking/smoking/eating everyday.
The secret is "happiness".
I wont talk about how lot of sayings talk about it (like 1hug/day etc)
but
i will mention that "stress" is a hidden poison.
THIS, is why shaolin monks, live far...
This state of having "nothing" and "doing nothing"
was and still is "boring".
But.
It is this state where you turn off your brain, that allow a respite of "everything".
A return to the source of "No internet/No computer/No phone/No games/No songs/NoNews/NoSocials/Nothing"
Just pure "nature".
A state of childhood, where you didnt have any troubles.
Where as a child, the world was beautiful, full of hopes, everyone is kind.
Previously, I did what people could call as "dopamine detox" or basically "yoga/meditation"
Gazing at the blue sky
is not to say i dont touch grass.
But basically DELETING WHOLE BROWSER HISTORY.
And brainlessly gaze the sky.