Changing my views on life really helped me recover from my previous breakdown. From being a miser, I started looking on the nice side of things. And being grateful for what I have helps, too.
Yes, there are some things I lack, but I also have things I am thankful for.
Also, I may be a pirate, but using legal MS Office is great. I got it as a free copy bought by my government (I work as government teacher). Having it on my device reduced the things I bring (notebooks, laptop, etc) with me to just my phone, where I type my manuscript drafts whenever I'm on the go.
My "Saint Series" novel is about to reach 21 volumes with a rewritten end to Arc 5. I mean, I really messed up Volume 20, so a rewrite is in immediate order.
So far, I'm 14k words in the new V20. Current V20 will become V21, with some parts also rewritten to match the events in the new V20.
Heading to November, I realized I've been chasing things in vain. The worst experiences I had early this year changed my outlook in life, and foolishness caused me to focus on useless stuff, instead of just letting go of events I can't control.
With the current ending of my work, I think a rewrite is in order.
Also, I am currently writing a set of chapters that would push the events of current V20 to V21. It might cause some confusion, but it is a bitter pill I needed to take. At least, I envision the new chapters to 'set things in order' and properly use the elements I brought out in V18 and V19.
Sorry, no need to answer this, but I just wanna vent.
Lately, I've been tormented by thoughts of suicide. Like, I don't see anything worth living in my life anymore. And I always tend to isolate myself when it does happen, coz I know many peeps have their own burdens to carry.
I'm holding out, avoiding any stuff that can cause me harm.

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