Hans.Trondheim
Low energy is king!
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I finished my long running novel, The Human Saint is Bored around December of 2024, having it started writing it May 2019. I guess the lack of work I went through from 2020 to mid-2023 helped me complete my story @ 5 Arcs, 21 books/volumes, around 440 chapters, and 1.3 million words. Along with that are 140+ illustrations like covers, back cover, character intros, in-chapter drawings and other stuff which I did during the months I was not writing.
So, what did I feel after that?
Let me start by telling you how I feel when I finished a volume, which is volume 1. I was happy and hopeful. Disregard the panning I received from Royal Road, and I was really motivated by then. Fast forward to finishing Arc 1 (of which, the last volume is th 5th book), and I was happy and content I finished an entire arc. So, I continued with 2nd arc, then 3rd arc, then 4th, and finally, the 5th arc.
By 5th Arc, I realized that my hardwork in writing won't suffice to cover the talent part, of which, I admit, I have none. It was a moment of despair, one that @RepresentingWrath 'documented' in one of his threads about 'losing focus on writing.' Still, by the end of 21st volume, I celebrated my small win, which was finishing an entire series with more than a million words, and content that I did my assignment (like research, and trying to be as consistent as possible).
But, the euphoria was short-lived. The celebration was limited, and honestly, I was like a smoke that just passed. By then, I admitted to myself that I'm no talented writer, and I just re-purposed my writing goal to telling stories, even if no one reads it.
So, why am I sharing this? Well, not that I'm being dramatic over it; I mean, popularity isn't my thing, and I'm at fault for what my author career has become, choosing to prioritize what I want over what the readers want. By now, I'm fine with it. And with the widespread use of AI, I'm still glad I took up writing because I get to have a 'mental exercise' from time to time (I can piss off Duterte stans with minimal effort). Also an excuse to do my own drawings, and I just can't stop telling stories, if you understand where I'm coming from. lol
Ah, yeah, and also an outlet for my condition, which is clinical bipolar type II. I can't be bored, or I'll think of self-destructive ways to unalive myself.
Any case, what's your writing experience? How's it going so far?
So, what did I feel after that?
Let me start by telling you how I feel when I finished a volume, which is volume 1. I was happy and hopeful. Disregard the panning I received from Royal Road, and I was really motivated by then. Fast forward to finishing Arc 1 (of which, the last volume is th 5th book), and I was happy and content I finished an entire arc. So, I continued with 2nd arc, then 3rd arc, then 4th, and finally, the 5th arc.
By 5th Arc, I realized that my hardwork in writing won't suffice to cover the talent part, of which, I admit, I have none. It was a moment of despair, one that @RepresentingWrath 'documented' in one of his threads about 'losing focus on writing.' Still, by the end of 21st volume, I celebrated my small win, which was finishing an entire series with more than a million words, and content that I did my assignment (like research, and trying to be as consistent as possible).
But, the euphoria was short-lived. The celebration was limited, and honestly, I was like a smoke that just passed. By then, I admitted to myself that I'm no talented writer, and I just re-purposed my writing goal to telling stories, even if no one reads it.
So, why am I sharing this? Well, not that I'm being dramatic over it; I mean, popularity isn't my thing, and I'm at fault for what my author career has become, choosing to prioritize what I want over what the readers want. By now, I'm fine with it. And with the widespread use of AI, I'm still glad I took up writing because I get to have a 'mental exercise' from time to time (I can piss off Duterte stans with minimal effort). Also an excuse to do my own drawings, and I just can't stop telling stories, if you understand where I'm coming from. lol
Ah, yeah, and also an outlet for my condition, which is clinical bipolar type II. I can't be bored, or I'll think of self-destructive ways to unalive myself.
Any case, what's your writing experience? How's it going so far?