Tired of existential dread

[ThrillingHuman]

My whole life I would find myself appaled at realising how I change.
When I was a kid I lost interest in a game I used to looove and realising that led me into a fit of terror. Maybe I cried a bit. Who knows. Nobody alive at least)
When I was a teen... boy oh boy was a I changing fast. And I sure hated it. I would look at where I am heading with horror. Change of my personality felt like a little death or a betrayal.
Now that I ve grown up a little, and I see myself change once again, I feel "is this even life? Is it worth going there?", but at the same time I feel "we've been through that rodeo before and I realise that change makes you feel like time is passing away never to return again and the world is not revolving around you but how about you grow up?" (and yes, I refer to myself in plural sometimes because we like it)
So, I decided to not fear change in myself, I am tired of this existential dread. Let's just roll along with it.

 

[MatchaChocolate69]

Let's enjoy the ride on this roller coaster.
Our body has changed so much, and we've seen and heard so many things that it's as if we've died and been reborn thousands of times.
As long as it's not game over, we might as well enjoy it.

 

[RepresentingWrath]

Do a backflip.

 

[SsemouyOnan]

 

[TheEldritchGod]

You okay?

 

[AnonUnlimited]

I exchanged my existential dread for existential bread a while ago.

 

[ConansWitchBaby]

Replace meat suit.

 

[Notadate]

Me and all my versions are chads. Minus my teenage state, that version was not a Chad. But my kid state, damn bro was a Chad. He played with legos. My teen version didnt

 

[J_Chemist]

Currently living with the understanding that I could off myself tomorrow or at any point whenever my brain decides we're not cowardly enough to not do it.

You get used to it. The dread becomes normalcy and you just float in the froth.

 

[TheMonotonePuppet]

My whole life I would find myself appaled at realising how I change.
When I was a kid I lost interest in a game I used to looove and realising that led me into a fit of terror. Maybe I cried a bit. Who knows. Nobody alive at least)
When I was a teen... boy oh boy was a I changing fast. And I sure hated it. I would look at where I am heading with horror. Change of my personality felt like a little death or a betrayal.
Now that I ve grown up a little, and I see myself change once again, I feel "is this even life? Is it worth going there?", but at the same time I feel "we've been through that rodeo before and I realise that change makes you feel like time is passing away never to return again and the world is not revolving around you but how about you grow up?" (and yes, I refer to myself in plural sometimes because we like it)
So, I decided to not fear change in myself, I am tired of this existential dread. Let's just roll along with it.

I am just a kid blowing their toy buoy to the pool’s wall, trying to get it to stick. The turbulence of me and the wind always push it off though. My personality will always sink into the grey, and float off aimlessly, childishly, the moment I get distracted. Even when hyper focused as only kids are, it is pointless.

Be careful. Sending hugs.

 

[Deleted member 84247]

As an ancient vampire, I can especially relate to the changes. The more things change, the more they stay the same.

 

[RepresentingCaution]

Yes.

 

[BlackKnightX]

For me, it's a constant improvement. Have I regressed? Of course. There are many instances when I feel like the me in the past could do better. It was frustrating, but I use that frustration to fuel me to get back to that level and keep on improving again.

Then, when I look back, that little regression was actually a good thing after all, because now I know all about the failure of that path and how to get on the right path again. It was a good lesson. And I end up improving even faster.

So, don't fear change. I don't even think about it. I only realize I've changed so much only after I look back to the past. Otherwise, just focus on the present while moving towards the destination.

 

[Prince_Azmiran_Myrian]

You know what really helps with existential dread?

Knowing how it all ends, and that there is hope promised to you by God.

 

[PancakesWitch]

You know what really helps with existential dread?

Knowing how it all ends, and that there is hope promised to you by God.

i have no such hopes from god but i dont have existential dread either, i belive what has helped me with that is writing and getting all my fucked mind demons out through these novels so my mind feels much emptier and healthy, every time i write i exorcize myself

 

[Tyranomaster]

If you haven't read some of the classics of philosophy, consider doing so. Not sure what country you are from, so I won't blame the education system, but I think a lot of people who struggle with problems like existential dread, fear of ego death, or many similar issues would benefit greatly from reading the philosophical theories from people who pondered those issues for their whole lives. Consider Kant and Jung to be good starting points for these particular issues.

If instead you want to shortcut most of the philosophy and skip ahead to some decent self-help based on a lot of Jungian thinking, and is something that is basically just instructions for getting passed it, consider 12 Rules for Life by Jordan Peterson.

 

[MatchaChocolate69]

i belive what has helped me with that is writing and getting all my fucked mind demons out through these novels so my mind feels much emptier and healthy, every time i write i exorcize myself

For once, I agree with something you've said. Writing helps exorcise one's demons.

 

[BearlyAlive]

Level up your nihilism and cynicism. While it does make you less sociable, at least the last laugh will be on you.