Is this a direct reference to
@CheertheSecond 's thread? o.0
Let's see what I can do here...
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I didn't realize it until it was too late.
I helped the heroine that I admired so much into getting her happy ending. I was so happy to help her. So happy that she didn't have to undergo all those struggles.
... But I only now noticed how little I had done for myself. How I never got close to her. How I never got close to anybody.
How alone I feel now... How disappointed my family feels with me...
A girl from a small baron's family... My only opportunity to get a good marriage was in the noble's school... Yet I wasted all that time silently working in the shadows to help the heroine.
I now have no contacts. No friends. Nobody to help me... What next? What now?
... I know what happens now. It was told to me right now. I... I have to accept the reality in front of me.
I'm marrying a rich fat merchant who is twice my age. My family needs the money and I was unable to get a marriage with any noble who could provide it to us.
... I looked back on my actions... Why did I try so hard? Why did I take it all away from the villainess? What did that even amount to?
It's not like she was evil in the first place. She was just the heroine's rival and the one who was more likely to become the prince's fiancee... And she'd lose the battle and marry a duke even if I didn't do anything myself. I could have just focused on my own life and my own happiness.
But instead, I tried making the heroine happier and the villainess disappointed by never having a chance to compete with the heroine... Instead I was the silent helper...
Instead, I was the biggest fool in that entire school.
... I really was an absolute idiot, wasn't I?
"... I understand, father, mother. I will do what is best for our family." I gave them a curtsy.
I had no right to refuse... This was my fault after all... I deserve this.
