Well, dang, an incident happened, and it has to do with this topic. I figured I'd share because I'm kind of shaken up by the reaction people had. I don't know where to share it after the catastrophe that happened, until I remembered this topic. So here goes.
So there was this Discord server that I was the admin on. I don't want to give specifics about the server itself, but let's say that I amassed a lot of people in there. It was great. I was the leader and I was doing all these fun things with everyone. Well, eventually someone mentioned a game that had some loli characters and they said "f**k lolicons". As the admin, I looked into it and saw that another mod took care of it. Despite this, I didn't like the comment, I felt kind of offended by it. I figured maybe, just maybe, I can tell the mod who I am and give him context about it. So I told him I was a lolicon. He asked if I liked kids in real life, and I honestly told him yes and explained myself.
He was shocked, for sure, but he said he understood who I was, attraction is something you don't control, and suggested I seek therapy. And that seemed to be the end of that.
Well, it wasn't.
A few days later, my account was disabled by Discord for "sexualizing minors." I didn't post any images of any kind or talked about this anywhere else, except in that DM with that mod, and only telling him who I was. I made another account and told everyone that Discord disabled my previous one due to a ToS violation. Another mod decided to look into it as well and sent their ticket to Discord.
I have no proof of this, but I'm pretty sure Discord told them everything.
Next thing you know, I was banned from the server, the mod told me he was no longer comfortable with me being a member, and upon logging in to the server in an alternative account, there was pandemonium within the server. The original mod had spilled the beans about our conversation and everyone was going nuts. I was being called a pedophile and everyone was disgusted by my confession. I was even being accused of DM'ng younger members. I only DM'ed one person who was a minor and it was strictly business, not some weird grooming they are accusing me of. They wanted an opinion on their fanfic and I did give them that, and that would've been the end of that. It was pure chaos because I was really big in the community and everyone was freaking out about this. In the end, a new server was made and everyone transferred there. The old server is now left to rot. It got so bad I had to delete my Twitter as well as that was the only other site I was a part of. This was out of consideration as well because I did not want a specific someone else to have this affect them.
I'm still shaking about this. All I did was be honest. I even told them I do not condone being in a relationship with someone so young, and it all imploded right in front of my face. I can't go back to that community anymore, I am now a pariah within it, and I feel pretty devastated. All because I wanted to be myself. I should be thankful that identity did not extend beyond that community, or else everything else I had would be in danger.
What a dichotomy this is. I posted my earlier post with much enthusiasm in this forum and got a pretty good positive response from it. I tell an individual with earnest honesty and even sensitivity and it leads to the downfall of the freaking Roman empire.
In the end of all this, I feel kind of abandoned, betrayed even. Those who I thought were friends turned their back on me without even considering my feelings. But at the same, I realize I should not have told him. I now realize that there is a time and a place to tell people about these things, and that was neither the time nor the place. But dang, this hurts so much.
This is still new right now and I'm still shaking about this. I'll feel better in a few days, I guess, but man, I feel pretty devastated about it. What I said in my earlier post still holds true, I do believe this topic needs to be discussed, but now I'm learning that I am limited to where I can do that. This has been quite an experience for sure.
So, I just wanted to share that. The confessions of a lolicon to a group of people who don't understand it and the devastating result from it.. Once again, I'm still new here and I still hope you can have me. I won't talk about this topic any more, I figured this thread is enough, but if the topic comes up again, well, then yeah, I'll share more info about it.
Thanks for being so understanding.