HiroXV
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- Dec 15, 2024
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Incredible but true, I am still alive.
It might seem obvious to me because I live in this body and I’m still breathing, but for anyone who inhabits these forums, I’m nothing more than a small box with a status indicating whether I’m online or offline, and most likely, it often showed that I was offline.
Actually, I had a slight fear of making this post, or rather, like with everything in my life, I’ve often postponed it. But here I am now, I can’t back out.
So… Why did I disappear for a while?
I made a terrible mistake, one that hit me so hard and aggressively that it completely destroyed me physically and mentally: I abandoned a story, just a few weeks after starting it!
Anyone who dares check my profile will see a certain story that I openly discussed just a few months ago in this forum. In reality, it’s not directly about abandoning the story in the middle of writing it that drained me, or rather, it contributed.
It was actually writing that story itself that completely drained me. For several reasons that slowly developed, or better yet, that I slowly developed:
Tragic, right? It’s not tragic, I’m the idiot.
In that short period when I was writing, I completely forgot the reason I was writing, and because of that, I also lost the joy of it. That’s why, once I lost motivation for that story and abandoned it, I stopped writing for a while.
I recognize that I’m probably speaking without coherence and that it’s not clear what I’m saying. Rather, this is more like a diary entry, or an excuse?
Anyway, I’ve learned my lesson: find balance, or rather, don’t write for others and enjoy what I write instead of doing it for digital numbers.
Well… Maybe another of my stories may appear here. We’ll have to see.
Cheers!
It might seem obvious to me because I live in this body and I’m still breathing, but for anyone who inhabits these forums, I’m nothing more than a small box with a status indicating whether I’m online or offline, and most likely, it often showed that I was offline.
Actually, I had a slight fear of making this post, or rather, like with everything in my life, I’ve often postponed it. But here I am now, I can’t back out.
So… Why did I disappear for a while?
I made a terrible mistake, one that hit me so hard and aggressively that it completely destroyed me physically and mentally: I abandoned a story, just a few weeks after starting it!
Anyone who dares check my profile will see a certain story that I openly discussed just a few months ago in this forum. In reality, it’s not directly about abandoning the story in the middle of writing it that drained me, or rather, it contributed.
It was actually writing that story itself that completely drained me. For several reasons that slowly developed, or better yet, that I slowly developed:
- I wrote a plot that I didn’t like, where I decided to rely on popular tropes.
- I didn’t make a backlog and wrote like a madman every day.
Tragic, right? It’s not tragic, I’m the idiot.
In that short period when I was writing, I completely forgot the reason I was writing, and because of that, I also lost the joy of it. That’s why, once I lost motivation for that story and abandoned it, I stopped writing for a while.
I recognize that I’m probably speaking without coherence and that it’s not clear what I’m saying. Rather, this is more like a diary entry, or an excuse?
Anyway, I’ve learned my lesson: find balance, or rather, don’t write for others and enjoy what I write instead of doing it for digital numbers.
Well… Maybe another of my stories may appear here. We’ll have to see.
Cheers!
