matalayudasleazy
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I'm not very proud of myself regarding this, let me tell you.
I'm not a native speaker of English, I'm Indonesian (and Javanese for the local language), and I started writing around 2019, before the virus hits.
It may just be depression from the pandemic post-2020, but I got to get this off my chest else I implode and does some shady IRL stuff like un-alive myself or something, which writing helps a lot to fend off that thought but it also has its own costs.
So at first look, writing cost you nothing aside from time and passion, right? Yes . . . at first.
In hindsight, Writing costs me a lot of things, things that I should have kept with me even with the constant struggle of living as a growing teenager, particularly on the language department.
Over here, we have about three languages (four if you're on Religious School) that we students attend to : Indonesian, Javanese, Arabic, and English.
Now, forgive me for saying this but I'm quite confident on the first and last subject, mostly getting around 60 to 90+ on both (B- to A+ if converted to American grades).
Now, Arabic is hard as it is sometimes known as the "Language from The Heavens", and I suppose that's true because it's hard but we Muslims do use it frequently because our Prayers and Holy Scriptures of Qur'an includes it in every aspect of our life. I do suppose I've learned most of its writing rules but only the ones inside Qur'an, I don't know how the real ones from way over at Middle-East does the thing, really. At least I get 40 to 90+ if lucky.
But Javanese? Not the Java program nor the programming language, the local language from over here has its own sets of rules and YET ANOTHER way of writing the language, Hanacaraka, and don't you get me started on the Ancient and Modern writing rules this one language have. I'm not fond of this one, easily 20 to 60 since I'm bad at it, and that's if I looked at my classmates works where we all share our written assignments together kind of thing.
So how does this tie in to the cost of writing? Well, Javanese are also used to socialise with people from around here but, you can say I'm one of the people who's left behind in terms of the local language because before quarantine started, I've gone to an islamic boarding school in name when in reality it's a boot camp for about 1-2 years at around 2016-2017 before dropping out with many bad things regarding it such as lack of hygene at places, outlandish rules where you got to wake up at around 3 A.M despite just sleeping 4 hours prior, and the rules that you got to either socialise with either English or Arabic with people, no inbetweens, so maybe this is the downhill of my local language department or I just suck at learning things I don't like... though I do suppose having a crocodile in a cage close to the football field and the drying clothes section to hear it grumble and feed it is cool and all.
At this time, I have MANY inspirations and idea on writing but I do it in English and the thing is we all are isolated from technology almost completely, and if you got found with any sort of electronic device whether that be a freaking Nokia (brick)phone or a wrist watch, you'd be grounded with feats of having to run around the whole complex or the field where both are about 0,5 Km . . . 5 TIMES.
After dropping out, my mind is more at ease, and more imaginations transpire from my mind, even as I breeze through the religious junior high-school at over here. The difficulty arises from the fact that I don't know whether to publish it or not, each chapter easily going over 9K+ and that's when done in a day, I was very fresh at the time.
But pandemy changed that for me, turning what was once a hobby turning into a sluggish checklist to do every day and then, heck I still feel it to this day, and I can guess some of you do too. Yet another blunder is that at this point of time, I had dreams upon dreams of my plot points and events and such, so I began to intensify further, and do you know where I post it first? Webnovel. Let's just say I condemn my past self for it.
From way over 9K+ a day to just about 300 if I'm in the mood for it but it's for the betterment of my mental state, eyebags isn't even an anomaly for me anymore.
Tell me what's you guys have to tell on how you guys were before and/or after writing and the consequences from it, I love hearing someone else's story of how far they come as an Author!
I'm not a native speaker of English, I'm Indonesian (and Javanese for the local language), and I started writing around 2019, before the virus hits.
It may just be depression from the pandemic post-2020, but I got to get this off my chest else I implode and does some shady IRL stuff like un-alive myself or something, which writing helps a lot to fend off that thought but it also has its own costs.
So at first look, writing cost you nothing aside from time and passion, right? Yes . . . at first.
In hindsight, Writing costs me a lot of things, things that I should have kept with me even with the constant struggle of living as a growing teenager, particularly on the language department.
Over here, we have about three languages (four if you're on Religious School) that we students attend to : Indonesian, Javanese, Arabic, and English.
Now, forgive me for saying this but I'm quite confident on the first and last subject, mostly getting around 60 to 90+ on both (B- to A+ if converted to American grades).
Now, Arabic is hard as it is sometimes known as the "Language from The Heavens", and I suppose that's true because it's hard but we Muslims do use it frequently because our Prayers and Holy Scriptures of Qur'an includes it in every aspect of our life. I do suppose I've learned most of its writing rules but only the ones inside Qur'an, I don't know how the real ones from way over at Middle-East does the thing, really. At least I get 40 to 90+ if lucky.
But Javanese? Not the Java program nor the programming language, the local language from over here has its own sets of rules and YET ANOTHER way of writing the language, Hanacaraka, and don't you get me started on the Ancient and Modern writing rules this one language have. I'm not fond of this one, easily 20 to 60 since I'm bad at it, and that's if I looked at my classmates works where we all share our written assignments together kind of thing.
So how does this tie in to the cost of writing? Well, Javanese are also used to socialise with people from around here but, you can say I'm one of the people who's left behind in terms of the local language because before quarantine started, I've gone to an islamic boarding school in name when in reality it's a boot camp for about 1-2 years at around 2016-2017 before dropping out with many bad things regarding it such as lack of hygene at places, outlandish rules where you got to wake up at around 3 A.M despite just sleeping 4 hours prior, and the rules that you got to either socialise with either English or Arabic with people, no inbetweens, so maybe this is the downhill of my local language department or I just suck at learning things I don't like... though I do suppose having a crocodile in a cage close to the football field and the drying clothes section to hear it grumble and feed it is cool and all.
At this time, I have MANY inspirations and idea on writing but I do it in English and the thing is we all are isolated from technology almost completely, and if you got found with any sort of electronic device whether that be a freaking Nokia (brick)phone or a wrist watch, you'd be grounded with feats of having to run around the whole complex or the field where both are about 0,5 Km . . . 5 TIMES.
After dropping out, my mind is more at ease, and more imaginations transpire from my mind, even as I breeze through the religious junior high-school at over here. The difficulty arises from the fact that I don't know whether to publish it or not, each chapter easily going over 9K+ and that's when done in a day, I was very fresh at the time.
But pandemy changed that for me, turning what was once a hobby turning into a sluggish checklist to do every day and then, heck I still feel it to this day, and I can guess some of you do too. Yet another blunder is that at this point of time, I had dreams upon dreams of my plot points and events and such, so I began to intensify further, and do you know where I post it first? Webnovel. Let's just say I condemn my past self for it.
From way over 9K+ a day to just about 300 if I'm in the mood for it but it's for the betterment of my mental state, eyebags isn't even an anomaly for me anymore.
Tell me what's you guys have to tell on how you guys were before and/or after writing and the consequences from it, I love hearing someone else's story of how far they come as an Author!
