Kittylovely
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Inside I placed on my body layers and layers of clothing. Readying myself to go outside because I felt daring. I sat and watched nature dispute madly, I could see the whitish traces of rain being blown across by the wind from left to right. None came to my side, but featherlight drizzles hit me from time to time.
Within my heart restlessness was filled. Oddly enough, not because of the hustling surroundings but of the occurrences from where out. Would my mum realize I wasn't here and come scold me? Would they lock the door, forgetting someone was outside, and I'd have to knock till they awoke and scolded me anyway? I should simply stay here but what if the rain got so bad?
I couldn't enjoy the view, and so after much battling, I retreated inside. On my way in I was lightly bullied by the rain
Seki said "This reminds me something. It's like you and your comfort zone. Did you see it? Had you not left, no one would come to scold you. No one would lock the door, and even the rain that hit you on your way inside was worse than whatever drizzled unto you back then.
Did you see it? This is just like you and your comfort zone. You never try hard enough. You're always filled with restless anxieties that never occur and always retreat. Did you see? Just like everything that occurred today. It truly was all just noise."
I blinked. She was right. But wait. There's a twist. My response. Was the twist.
"As I sat and observed the rain I felt nothing but restlessness. No joy, no peace but only restlessness. I do agree that I let the noise get to me. But tell me something, Seki, why should I remain if all that I felt was restlessness? If all the symphony that played was the noise? Perhaps if I had felt joy....or peace... Or whatever else but the noise then all good and fine.
But tell me Seki, why should I leave my comfort zone when the other place gives me nothing of value? If my comfort place is better than it, why shouldn't I return to it?"
She was silent. I smiled.
"I returned bcs it gave me nothing of value."
(never mind the grammar error, I'm too lazy sorry)
Within my heart restlessness was filled. Oddly enough, not because of the hustling surroundings but of the occurrences from where out. Would my mum realize I wasn't here and come scold me? Would they lock the door, forgetting someone was outside, and I'd have to knock till they awoke and scolded me anyway? I should simply stay here but what if the rain got so bad?
I couldn't enjoy the view, and so after much battling, I retreated inside. On my way in I was lightly bullied by the rain
Seki said "This reminds me something. It's like you and your comfort zone. Did you see it? Had you not left, no one would come to scold you. No one would lock the door, and even the rain that hit you on your way inside was worse than whatever drizzled unto you back then.
Did you see it? This is just like you and your comfort zone. You never try hard enough. You're always filled with restless anxieties that never occur and always retreat. Did you see? Just like everything that occurred today. It truly was all just noise."
I blinked. She was right. But wait. There's a twist. My response. Was the twist.
"As I sat and observed the rain I felt nothing but restlessness. No joy, no peace but only restlessness. I do agree that I let the noise get to me. But tell me something, Seki, why should I remain if all that I felt was restlessness? If all the symphony that played was the noise? Perhaps if I had felt joy....or peace... Or whatever else but the noise then all good and fine.
But tell me Seki, why should I leave my comfort zone when the other place gives me nothing of value? If my comfort place is better than it, why shouldn't I return to it?"
She was silent. I smiled.
"I returned bcs it gave me nothing of value."
(never mind the grammar error, I'm too lazy sorry)