Kireizaki
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Hey everyone, I'm at a bit of a weird spot with my writing, and was hoping you all might have some advice. Some context on how I got here, though:
My wife and I used to post gender bender fanfiction on Deviantart, since that sort of content on that site had been an important part of me embracing my own identity as a transwoman. A lot of the content there can be pretty meanspirited, but the two of us tried writing more trans-affirming stories and we're pretty proud of a lot of what we did. A LOT of my early work is super rough, but there's clear growth from where I started to my later work on that site, and I'm happy for that. The two of us ended up getting a surprisingly big following too, and at times I even got messages from readers thanking us for our writing, saying it helped them come out to themselves. I'm still really chuffed, thinking back on that.
Eventually, the site got *pretty* bad for us, with stories being deleted with no explanation, me getting a lot of very uncomfortable messages, and it just becoming clear that the longer-form stuff we wanted to write wasn't gonna work there, so we moved to AO3 on recommendation from a friend. It was a much nicer place for our work, and while our audience was much smaller, we didn't get any harassment or any kind of weirdness there, which was nice. I'm really proud of our newer writing that's up there, and I was so happy to see it get the reception that it did. Sadly, the site has like no social features or any way to communicate really at all outside of comments, so any absences from our writing have gone totally unexplained and I really hate that.
Then life kept happening at us (too much to get into here, but deaths in my immediate family, me moving halfway across the world to be with my wife through a very, very stressful immigration process (and at one point, the risk of deportation over a technicality that's thankfully long behind us now), the two of us needing to find our own place, and a whole ton on top of all this) and my writing ultimately took a major backseat for a while. I was depressed and anxious and just couldn't manage a thing. It's been months since I was last able to put out a story of any kind.
But in amongst all that, my wife and I spoke about maybe starting to write books. We read a lot of light novels, and wanted to try do something similar to the best of our abilities. With all that was happening, it was slow going, but I've finished a first draft on a fantasy/slice-of-life novel that I'm really proud of. It's about 80k words and still needs some editing passes, but I cried so damn much when we wrapped things up, I was so so happy to have reached that point.
The only thing is now I don't really know what to do with it. English light novel publishing is a nightmare and a half, and I'm not sure how well I'll be able to adequately self-publish and promote a book on my own terms. I'm worried that the gender bender stuff might be a hard sell in that regard, and that the focus on monster girls might be offputting, but it's what I'm passionate about so I don't want to compromise on all that.
I had barely even heard of Scribblehub until very recently, but it seems like those things are a lot more warmly received here, which is really heartening.
So I guess I'm wondering what you all think I should do. Should I try find a publisher or a site that might pay for that kind of writing, should I self-publish, or should I try put it up somewhere like here and start a Patreon?
Honestly, with how much time I had to take off from writing, I'm worried I missed my big chance to succeed with it all. That's probably pessimistic, but god, was life an absolute mess for me over the past while. I'm only just now starting to feel like myself again, really.
Anyway, I'm sorry for rambling and I hope this isn't all weird to say. Whatever ultimately comes of this, thank you for giving me the time of day.
My wife and I used to post gender bender fanfiction on Deviantart, since that sort of content on that site had been an important part of me embracing my own identity as a transwoman. A lot of the content there can be pretty meanspirited, but the two of us tried writing more trans-affirming stories and we're pretty proud of a lot of what we did. A LOT of my early work is super rough, but there's clear growth from where I started to my later work on that site, and I'm happy for that. The two of us ended up getting a surprisingly big following too, and at times I even got messages from readers thanking us for our writing, saying it helped them come out to themselves. I'm still really chuffed, thinking back on that.
Eventually, the site got *pretty* bad for us, with stories being deleted with no explanation, me getting a lot of very uncomfortable messages, and it just becoming clear that the longer-form stuff we wanted to write wasn't gonna work there, so we moved to AO3 on recommendation from a friend. It was a much nicer place for our work, and while our audience was much smaller, we didn't get any harassment or any kind of weirdness there, which was nice. I'm really proud of our newer writing that's up there, and I was so happy to see it get the reception that it did. Sadly, the site has like no social features or any way to communicate really at all outside of comments, so any absences from our writing have gone totally unexplained and I really hate that.
Then life kept happening at us (too much to get into here, but deaths in my immediate family, me moving halfway across the world to be with my wife through a very, very stressful immigration process (and at one point, the risk of deportation over a technicality that's thankfully long behind us now), the two of us needing to find our own place, and a whole ton on top of all this) and my writing ultimately took a major backseat for a while. I was depressed and anxious and just couldn't manage a thing. It's been months since I was last able to put out a story of any kind.
But in amongst all that, my wife and I spoke about maybe starting to write books. We read a lot of light novels, and wanted to try do something similar to the best of our abilities. With all that was happening, it was slow going, but I've finished a first draft on a fantasy/slice-of-life novel that I'm really proud of. It's about 80k words and still needs some editing passes, but I cried so damn much when we wrapped things up, I was so so happy to have reached that point.
The only thing is now I don't really know what to do with it. English light novel publishing is a nightmare and a half, and I'm not sure how well I'll be able to adequately self-publish and promote a book on my own terms. I'm worried that the gender bender stuff might be a hard sell in that regard, and that the focus on monster girls might be offputting, but it's what I'm passionate about so I don't want to compromise on all that.
I had barely even heard of Scribblehub until very recently, but it seems like those things are a lot more warmly received here, which is really heartening.
So I guess I'm wondering what you all think I should do. Should I try find a publisher or a site that might pay for that kind of writing, should I self-publish, or should I try put it up somewhere like here and start a Patreon?
Honestly, with how much time I had to take off from writing, I'm worried I missed my big chance to succeed with it all. That's probably pessimistic, but god, was life an absolute mess for me over the past while. I'm only just now starting to feel like myself again, really.
Anyway, I'm sorry for rambling and I hope this isn't all weird to say. Whatever ultimately comes of this, thank you for giving me the time of day.