I'd still hate you in your next life. You are a sweet and funny lady pangmida, I am sure many enjoy your company and plenty of people here can attest to that. You deserve to be loved in this life even if you feel otherwise.
And pangy, you already are deserving of the exact kind of love you want, if you don't get it, then you're with the wrong person. I agree with duck on his words, he is one wise three year old.