Now the question is : How long until my SHF addiction makes me crave to return.
1day? I hope not.
I will try to detox it.
ps: Its to clarify that i am in no way trying to get sympathy or hugs or etc. Im truly bored. (bc i got this trait to always be misunderstood as the villain) (or attract villains that are good to act innocent and criticize me. Thrice.)
You can simply log in as much as I do at this point. No need to really quit entirely. I just occasionally look. My addiction is still there, but there is only a compulsion to check a couple of times a day. No longer feel FOMO either. Hard to miss out when nothing interesting is happening.
The "dont kill(silence) me" at the top of your profile (that i then deleted). 0 react. Despite you being online for hour(s).
And ZannaYO (or you) deleted your post of kissing her, where i posted a yuri pic under it, and you re-kissed.
At your re-kissing, i thought to do new joke. But thought no, maybe they will dislike it because they want to be alone. Maybe why deleted.
That is this kind of thing, makes me pessimist brain go overdrive and go "do they hate me or my post".
Because just like proved Nagatoro-vale, you cant understand brain of others sometimes. (crush on me)
Its not that i need to t grass, but just of how fucked up my luck can be.
I mean, 3 times, i had douchebags being totally unreasonable (from 0 to FU tsuru)=ptsd=unsure now someone normal brain or hate me.
Why the fuck, shf users can't be simply honest. (like moon telling her love for me)
Everywhere outside people lie and fake it.
That is why im so "expressive" here. I remove my mask and just be true. Sadly also making me more easily hurt.
Its like botty, only recently revealed why she doesnt flirt as she find it awkward.
Or someone not telling they dislike smthg.
1day? I hope not.
I will try to detox it.
ps: Its to clarify that i am in no way trying to get sympathy or hugs or etc. Im truly bored. (bc i got this trait to always be misunderstood as the villain) (or attract villains that are good to act innocent and criticize me. Thrice.)