Spoiler: I bought it for my mother. I have given up on marriage; no one wants to marry a guy with clinical bipolar.
Yeah, I have same apprehensions. I don't wanna ruin someone else's life because someone like me is lonely.
I started coping with my situation long ago. But sometimes I really wish that I could be normal. Teenage love problems don't sound so bad.
I learned to embrace my bipolarism. I can create because of that. Sad part is, I'm on my 20th attempt to kill myself. But, all is fine nowadays...hopefully.
Don't end yourself-nya. I hope you stay strong and may things get better for you. Let's both hope for the best.