btw you are correct that I lost all interest in that novel after getting spoiled. Still ah...i thought so many terrible things wil happen to MC because every chapter would end off with "She decided to choose adventure" "She never wanted to go back home" "Surely Mother Mary had sent her here for a reason"
Nya...
The author started the novel by saying it is a dark tale meant for adults and that made me think it would include abuse, slavery, trafficking but turns out the only 'adult' thing about it was that MC likes sex as a girl.
If I feel i will breakdown, I will let myself breakdown first. Acknowledging my situation and then doing qhat I love to do.. after that rebuilding my mental state? Ahhahaah