I am sorry. It would be better for me to die and to disappear forever from this world and not dirty it with my presence... I know it would be. But I can never do it. I am a coward. I'm a monster.
These thoughts in my head, they push against my skull and try to escape into this world outside... They are the most horrible thoughts in the world and they drive me to do the most awful and despicable things.
Please forgive me. Please do not forgive me. Please condemn me and hate me for I deserve no less than the deepest hatred and condemnation by everybody and everything and I deserve no forgiveness for what I am and what I have done.