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you haven't mastered the art of gaslighting

Honestly if I wasn’t completely disconnected right now I’d have already just said screw and would have been done with this bullshit… good thing I have a strong imagination but the farther I go into my own worlds I find that it gets harder and harder to get out and my sense of unreality doesn’t help either… well I just hope it just passes because I don’t have the energy to deal with it anymore-nyah.

thinking about it won't help, it only makes it worse.

@Hoshino I probably have actually by now because it’s practically a miracle that I’m still alive with the power of constantly lying to myself just so I’ll begrudgingly live 1 more hour, day or whatever… thinking about it may make things worse but if I don’t at least acknowledge it openly it will inevitably become worse anyway… at least this way it gets a bit harder to deny-nyah.

Which to be fair may be a double edged sword as it might just send me over the edge but it’s not like I can get much closer to falling anyway so it changes almost nothing-nyah.