So, dont listen to joe hisaishi, but more "happy songs".
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Tsuru
ElijahRyne
I am dreading the pain that might happen, but trying to distract myself.
Tsuru
Heck, i dont know, try finding a old but enjoyable videogame you played and do it now.
At worse, open minesweeper, or tetris, or the space-themed ball game, that windows systems have(had?).
At worse, open minesweeper, or tetris, or the space-themed ball game, that windows systems have(had?).
Tsuru
The unknown = fear.
Embrace it.
Acknowledge it. Just like the death of close one.
tldr: inevitability
Embrace it.
Acknowledge it. Just like the death of close one.
tldr: inevitability
Tsuru
Distracting yourself = running.
Like trauma or phobia.
And well, as you are a person knowledgeable (especially more on health), you already know that to cure them = confront them.
welp..... same thing.
Like trauma or phobia.
And well, as you are a person knowledgeable (especially more on health), you already know that to cure them = confront them.
welp..... same thing.
Tsuru
At worst.
Just talk in profile posts (not just this one) and tell your whole life, like some kind of monologue
or last-letter in case you die. (forgot the word for it. oh, last will? i think)
Releashing what is weighing on your heart could help you become calmer.
or basically, its like telling your troubles to psy job guy.
Just talk in profile posts (not just this one) and tell your whole life, like some kind of monologue
or last-letter in case you die. (forgot the word for it. oh, last will? i think)
Releashing what is weighing on your heart could help you become calmer.
or basically, its like telling your troubles to psy job guy.
ElijahRyne
So I am hearing Go or Chess, the only two games on my iPad that don’t give migraines after playing for 20 minutes. I will just wait until another hour and a half until the streamer I watch has an ongoing vod of 2.5 hours length so I can watch at 2x speed. Until then music, reading, and maybe some Go.
Tsuru
After you wrote a bunch of stuff here in a last-will kinda version.
You will feel far more "light hearted" and less "stressed"
mostly bc i guess, you prepared yourself.
And the brain understand subconsciously : I did everything i could.
(like preparation for marathon)
You will feel far more "light hearted" and less "stressed"
mostly bc i guess, you prepared yourself.
And the brain understand subconsciously : I did everything i could.
(like preparation for marathon)
ElijahRyne
Sorry slow typer. Just whenever I think of the surgery my thoughts spiral, but I am ready to confront the surgery. Part of me however is yowling like a dog because of the anticipated pain.
Tsuru
The sole flaw that isnt a flaw, is that people would joke (amicably)
"Elijah do you remember the time you were scared and wrote a last will posts?"
and you will blush.
But for "current you" its far more useful than "future suffering, that is just cringiness"
ps : mental also help for recovery (brain influence cells, yep)
"Elijah do you remember the time you were scared and wrote a last will posts?"
and you will blush.
But for "current you" its far more useful than "future suffering, that is just cringiness"
ps : mental also help for recovery (brain influence cells, yep)
ElijahRyne
I quite dislike pain, but in an irony of the universe avoiding immediate pain brings you future pain 9/10 times.
Tsuru
or click the website i found. Full of GOLDEN ERA OLD CNs ERA !
After reading a novel, then operation come.
And your brain is SOOOOO occupied by the books, you will think : "goddamn i cant die or i hope it finish soon so i can read back soon"
(and the more brain focus on pain, the more it feels it)
try new stuff.
or click the website i found. Full of GOLDEN ERA OLD CNs ERA !
After reading a novel, then operation come.
And your brain is SOOOOO occupied by the books, you will think : "goddamn i cant die or i hope it finish soon so i can read back soon"
(and the more brain focus on pain, the more it feels it)
Tsuru
(and i bet there is a medical term for it too)
just "DONT. THINK"
or go brainrot mode.
yep i think i can picture your thinking. (happened to me too, sometimes)
(and i bet there is a medical term for it too)
just "DONT. THINK"
or go brainrot mode.
Tsuru
Anyway its "inevitable" and i bet your brain keep reminding you of "incoming operation"
especially as its something you hate.
+"i wish i didnt need to do this"
I bet my words, has only 50% efficiency bc mind is muddled. or methods ineffective bc brain is stressed mode.
everyone dislike but i guess from y wording, its "a big dislike" =/
Anyway its "inevitable" and i bet your brain keep reminding you of "incoming operation"
especially as its something you hate.
+"i wish i didnt need to do this"
I bet my words, has only 50% efficiency bc mind is muddled. or methods ineffective bc brain is stressed mode.
ElijahRyne
My thoughts are hard to put to words though, part of me feels a phantom pain, and another is trying to imagine how the drive home would feel. Ridiculous when you look at it, but the mind gets its way in the end.
ElijahRyne
I am sitting next to paper work I need to fill out, but I can’t do it until tomorrow, and a handful of medical bills to my left of no more than 50$. Things I could do right now, but can’t as if a glass pane is separating me from them.
ElijahRyne
It’s annoying and part of me thinks I may have ADD, ADHD, or something similar. Nonetheless I sit here passing the time away as my mind spins in the background. Like a backing track of dread.
Tsuru
Nononono i totally get it.
Your IQ logical part of your brain thinks : why am i like that? why do i think this kind of stupidity?
Its normal.
Well not really. But more like : its NOT your fault.
Its just the bs 90% uncontrollable subconscious part of brain (cough lucy movie)
Your IQ logical part of your brain thinks : why am i like that? why do i think this kind of stupidity?
Its normal.
Well not really. But more like : its NOT your fault.
Its just the bs 90% uncontrollable subconscious part of brain (cough lucy movie)