Does that make me an anti-nihilist? Wait never mind, I found my Vampy Mommy Goddess, and she gave me purpose.
I rather you be happy in your ventures. Just make sure it is not toxic (god I hate the term) positivity. Because apparently, even being happy can be toxic.
Happiness is a healthy balance of happy, anger, sadness, etc. You let yourself feel the emotions, so you can go back to a more normal state