Self deception is a powerful thing. You wanted to believe that you're fine, so you denied the fact that you had depression.
I must have such a big ego that I denied crying out loud in the middle of school grounds, attempting overdose and jumping off the 3rd story was not depression simply cus "depression is cringe"
Fuck... Idk, that phase was fun though, I feel the music and emotions much better, now it's just music.