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at least you know it, y'know?
"crazy people don't know they're crazy" or something.

That's kinda a toxic positivity reinforcement, don't you think.

"I feel like killing this kitten and ripping its guts out even though I know it's disgusting."
"Well, at least you know you wanted to so you're less worse than you actually do."

I don't know if you're using "I feel like" right but, people think about these things all the time.
what you think isn't what you are, is what you do that defines you.

ll, on one hand, I do good deeds like support my family financially, help those in needs and be friendly to all in my best ability
But on the other hand, back then, I have, once, commit such an act that I felt like deserve to land me in jail, thrice or more.
Am I just exist between the planes? Or is it some biblical shenanigans about there's good and evil inside all of us

there's no "planes" for you to exist between.
it's cliche bullshit, but we're all gray.
no one is perfect, I bet there is someone in your family, someone you think is a good person, that has done something bad.
yeah, of course, there's BAD bad people, but most people aren't perfect little angels or the shit you don't want to step on.

you clearly feel remorse, you clearly KNOW that what you are thinking is bad (not the act of thinking, but the thing itself), so you're not a devil committing good acts.
maybe I'm projecting in some parts here because I've dealt and I'm still dealing with this in my life.
hope you can get into a conclusion, good luck.