I've been sick with a cold, and so couldn't write, but now that I am not too tired from the bug and haven't exercised out my issues with writing for 4-ish days, feeling more of an energetic depressed.
Everything seems so wild and I want to write it all. And instead of a more miserable tint to my outlook, now I just actively loathe nothing and everything at once.
I don't get depression, 'cause I am good at gaslighting myself. But sometimes I get hit with nihilism, all of my ignored depression came all at once, hitting like a truck.
I'm not sure gaslighting yourself is a healthy way to go about it. I think seeking out the truth to your questions and erasing deceptions is better.
I mean to examine your foundations, and to make them rock solid.
If I analyse his first message. And put it through unit wave modulating code?(used in the 1700s by revolutionary.)
-1,0,+1,0,-1
Lpseh --------> (Help S.)anagram where S. stand for someone.
(Help someone )
Nvho--------------> da fuc that suppose to mean. probably the kidnappers took his phone from this point onwards and left this message to de-rail this investigation.
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