Casibol

When trying to juggle family issues, job hunting and the goal of self-sustainment, the most peace that reaches my heart is when putting my foolish dreams into words. As, free time is a blessing that shouldn't be wasted in a with foul-mouthed people with a gaze as dead as sin.

That is knowledge that found its way to me much too late…

I am a Software developer with almost no privacy in life, closed doors are seen a crime by those I should trust most and in turn it gets harder to find solace in them.

So I find it in the words on the paper, as they are friends that do not judge or prosecute. They give me the peace my body needs so that the gallows that hang above my head don't reach my brittle neck.

May god forgive me for these cursed thoughts, as even the simplest love seems no more than a distant memory, locked and unreachable by those as myself.